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5787844 tn?1376078984

I am beyond depressed and frustrated.

I was still only 2% but 70%
She stripped my membranes. But there was no blood. :/
Basically wouldnt let me leave without scheduling a c section. A week from Monday... 7:30am. I know I could still go before then. But DAMN IT! I am soooo mad and frustrated! I feel like this whole thing is being ripped from me and I have to be cool with it! People keep saying "all that really matters is that the baby is healthy!" Wtf!? What about meeeee!? Why does it not matter if Meagan is healthy?! I dont want to be stapled shut taking care of 3 kids...in a 3 floor home! I dont want to have to have my first days home with my baby be on painkillers.
I had a vbac before with a 9lb 5oz baby. Why are they making such a huge deal this time!!? Its because Im fat this time around... why that matters, I do not know. Its really discouraging not to have the confidence from my drs!

I have one last option... which could likely result in c section anyway...
I can be induced at a different hospital...thats further away. My family would be far...
But they keep telling me the risk of rupture and they have me scared stupid over it!

I dont know what to do here! Ive just been bawling since I got home.
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5787844 tn?1376078984
2cm not % jeez.
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Hugs, ive never gone through a c section before but I know I wouldnt want that either.
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7763229 tn?1396626895
Don't cry... it will be ok. I am new here but everyone knows all you have been through.  You have to stay strong for your other babies also.  You are at the finish line and have to do what's best for both of you. Pray about it, God bless and best wishes.
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Tresky u are almost there and i know even though they have scheduled u for c-section ive a strong feeling u will have gone in before next week. Just keep doing what u are doing, lots of walking, showering, sex and bouncing on that ball.persevere, with it and it will happen, hopefully it wont take much longer! I really feel for u, i was told i will be brought in for a cesarian at 38 wks, im delighted but they still havent scheduled a date for me, if they change their minds and leave me later than that i can see me throwing a hissy fit!
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5787844 tn?1376078984
Thank you!
Im just praying the membrane sweep did something!
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5900973 tn?1396064391
I know it's hard at this point but try to stay positive! Just keep doing what you have been doing and hopefully labor will kick in. Things can change really fast and I hope the best for you! I understand you not wanting to have a csection, i have had one myself, but in the end the result is the same. Although I realize it will be hard when you get home, like you said. But you sound like a strong woman and I bet you can make it work! :) Good Luck! I'm thinking of you!
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5787844 tn?1376078984
Thank you so much!
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When I had my membranes stripped they kept me over night I was 2cm also I had the baby the next morning. So, hopefully baby will come tonight or tomorrow. Hang in there!  I'm sure they've outweighed all the risks of vbac and felt like c section is the safest for you both.  If u do have a c section,  make sure u have some help for a couple weeks. Maybe a famoly member can stay with you until you heal and help with the kids
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5787844 tn?1376078984
I just had a huge chunk of mucus plug fall out and now Im super crampy
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6202880 tn?1380332653
Stay positive, girlie! That still gives you over a week. Go up and down your steps, walk, clean your house... I bet that membrane sweep will get you going yet and you'll have him soon! I'm cheering for you and praying that LO gets himself in gear and gets outa there!
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1399033 tn?1449587779
You'll have that baby before your scheduled appointment. I don't know if you pray or what you believe in, but I've prayed a prayer that it will happen on it's own. You'll be fine mama.. I have faith it'll happen before then. Keep walking around a little bit, bounce on the ball, do a couple of squats, walk some stairs. It WILL happen before then.. Just stay busy.
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That's great!! Praying that this is the start then! :) xx
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5787844 tn?1376078984
Omg me toooooo
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Yayyyyy! Anytime now.
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5900973 tn?1396064391
Yay! I hope you are on your way to a healthy delivery and will be holding your little one soon!
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5787844 tn?1376078984
Please god,please. If hes watching he just saw the good cry I had with my dog over the c section
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1399033 tn?1449587779
I told you yesterday that I thought it would happen last night/early morning/or today.. Something is gonna be started today. I'm telling you he will be in your arms by Sunday!! lol :)
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5787844 tn?1376078984
I hope I go tonight for my husbands birthday tomorrow
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That would be so cute. I was thinking that yesterday, when u said that in your post. Maybe God planned this from the start :) I'm praying u go in tonight and have that baby in the wee hours of tomorrow.  Happy birthday daddy! Best gift ever.
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5787844 tn?1376078984
I know! And I get out of having to make a cake lol
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He'll understand lol
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Its for the safety of you and your child. As long as the both of you are safe. Youve been trying to fight the clock knowing that if the baby doesn't come you will need a c section.  Its for both of you. If you feel your opinion is correct over your medical doctor,  switch to a place that will let you deliver at home un a tub or somewhere else.  They have plenty of places like that. Or just dont go in for your c section,  no one will hold u against your will. Its obvious after all this time that this is the safest choice for you and your baby and unless your planning on sitting at home and not attending ur c section date, start prwparing yourself for the c section and understand thats its the only option left for you. Trying to fight it now will only make everything worse for you.
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Dont get me wrong,  im having my second section on Friday.  I know what its like, I hope your baby comes before then but just prepare yourself because the more you accept it the easier it will be. Even if u end up not needing it. The worst thing in the world is doing something like this and being completely against it or feeling like it shouldn't be done.
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5787844 tn?1376078984
Ok.... well its not the only option. Its 10 days away.
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