want my body back!

[octoberpumpkin]

We tried fit for so many years to get pregnant and I honestly thought I'd never be able to, so I'm mad at myself for feeling this way but..I want my body back!!

I'm huge. I've been huge. I've gained 26 lbs and I started showing really early so my belly is just ...I'm over it. My maternity clothes don't even fit anymore because my belly is so huge. I think all of this was manageable until I saw stretch marks. Now I honestly just feel depressed and I'm freaking out that I won't get my body back to where it was. 4 more weeks!!!!!!

[Mj92124]

I get it... I had my first baby at 19. I started at the very beginning weighing 105lbs. After having 4 kids, I average between 120-125. Honestly, after being "thin" for most of my life, a few extra pounds to work with are welcomed with open arms. I'd much rather look like a woman with a few appropriate curves. Lord knows we've earned them! ;)

[octoberpumpkin]

That's true! Lol and yeah it probably has a lot to do with the hormones.

@mj it is very normal weight gain, I'm 35+4 and have gained 26lbs. I guess its just scary because this is my first rodeo lol. I've always been small, so feeling this big and seeing almost 150lbs on the scale is hard for me to process. I know its all necessary for my baby, but still... I just can't help but feel insecure. I'll just be happy when I can hold my baby in my arms, and work on finding myself again.

[mommy2ndtime]

Its ok to feel like that. I did with my first pregnancy and will with this one too. Its an awful feeling not being able to control the things that are happening to your body. Then there are the hormones and emotional roller coaster on top of it. I had a massive fight with my hubby the other night because he wanted to have sex. I yelled screamed threw stuff. He ended up sleeping in our sons room. The next day i felt like a b****. Ive already gained like 15 lbs and im not quite 9w. I had lost about that much over the summer and was down 2 sizes in shorts. Im so angry at myself. We just have to remember that we are growing human beings inside us. We are part of this Super Mommy Justice League. Its like our initiation. Hey after this we have a lifetime membership!!

[Mj92124]

That sounds like normal weight gain to me? (I guess it depends on how many weeks you are though... I'm 37+ weeks prego with #5. Started out at 120. I'm now at 148. Honestly though, I don't even care anymore. My babies are what's important to me. Self image is not exactly on the top of my priority list. But, I completely understand to the fullest. I haven't bought many clothes in this pregnancy. Figured I'm going to be uncomfortable regardless, right? Lol... I'm sure you'll shrink right back down without effort. Good luck ladies! =)

[octoberpumpkin]

Thanks :) I hope I can come to terms with the changes and feel comfortable again. I'm like you, I was 122 prepregnancy and at my last appointment I was 148lbs. And its like alllll belly. I feel like a walking watermelon

[Daniellerene]

Don't worrie hunny I feel the same way , idk how many time I was crying on my hubby cause of my weight ... before this pregnancy i was 125 now I'm like 165 ( maybe more I'll find out at my doc apt tomorrow ) .. and I'm only 4'6 so I look like the girl off of Willy Wonka who turned into a dam blue berry :/ but once the baby comes I know most of my weight is water so that will go away and I'll just have too work a little harder ( maybe ) too get back too what I was .... but your not alone I got a few more stretch marks (  this is my 2nd pregnancy ) and yah it made me depressed and sad but i now kinda look at it that I created something and went threw something men will never understand and if anyone has a problem they can just kiss my butt cause I'd love too see my hubby sit in my doc office and get the electrodes striped too him and feel what contractions feel like ...

don't worrie no matter what your still beautiful.

[octoberpumpkin]

I know but being a fall/winter baby I probably wont take him out much in the cold. I just... I don't know. I want my flat tummy size 2 jeans and unswollen feet back. Like now lol. I feel really selfish :( that's making me feel worse. I just need my hubby, he's always good at making me feel better but he's in the military and he's gone right now ;(

[mykids4dars]

Yes you will. I remember feeling that way. It will take time after you have the baby but you will get it back. Just think of the lovely walks you can take with your baby after he or she is here.