I need advice.

[60602240Z2A]

I have 6 more days until i get my period. I dont know if im pregnant or not. I took a home pregnancy test today and it said not pregnant.. and it was first response 6 days before your expected period day... anyways im really sad. I really want to be a mom. Yeah im only 20 but this is what i really want. Everyone keeps telling me to wait. Wait for what? Wait to get old? Wait to die before i even have kids? I just wanna be a mom and ever since ive had a miscarriage ive always wanted a baby and it breaks my heart to see mothers with thier kids and its like i cant even have one. My brother ajd his wife are 5 months along and its like they are rubbing it in my face. Idk what to do anymore. Plus my MIL that *****, she prayed that i never have kids. What will i do when my brother and his wife have a baby? Il see them enjoying it and carrying it around and il be hurt. I cant take this pain anymore.

[Kailalaa]

I think you'd really benefit from speaking with someone. Losing a baby is a pain that you're not alone in, and it sounds like you're still really upset about it (rightfully so). But it doesn't quite sounds like you've made peace with it yet and I think that's a really important step to take before trying for another baby. Getting pregnant to fill that void and to make yourself happy isn't a good reason and you might find yourself regretting it. I know you want a baby, and there is nothing wrong with that, but you should want a baby because you want a baby, not to fix yourself.

I our you understand what I'm trying to say. I don't want to come off rude or anything, because I totally get the baby jealousy and wanting I've, I do. But I also know how hard it is at 20, and I think if you're going to plan it you should try and be in a healthy state of mind. I hope everything works out for your! Good luck (:

[lily_1994]

I know exactly how u feel I use to feel the same way