scared I won't be here much longer

[niki_beth]

We were at a family BBQ today when I started spotting. I went to the ER and got some bloodwork done, levels are still rising, but seems they are slowing down a bit 909 on Mon. 2702 on Weds and 6714 today. They did an exam, by they time I got there the bleeding had pretty much stopped so that is a good thing I guess, cervix is closed and looked good, but when they did the u/s all they saw was a gestational sac measuring about 4 weeks. According to my EDD I should be 6 weeks tomorrow, and I got my BFP on June 22 which was almost 2 weeks ago, so I am very discouraged. I'm starting to worry that this is a chemical pregnancy or a blighted ovum... I have had one of those before. My husband is VERY upset, and I am just trying to hold it together. I have my u/s with my Dr. on Friday, but it seems like forever away, and I don't know if I should be hopeful or not because I don't want it to be that much harder if things don't change. I'm beside myself right now. I think I might call my Dr. on Monday and see if we can do a few more beta levels to get me through to Fri... I can't even sleep tonight... I really don't know that I can handle another m/c... I want another baby so badly, but I don't know how much more of this my family and I can take.
I am just praying that this little peanut is a slow but steady grower...

[diamondintherough79]

Your are in my prayers!

[moaningcow]

my thoughts are with you, let me know how it goes. xxxx

[Quinns momma]

You have no idea how sorry I am that u are going through all of this.  Please keep us posted.

[niki_beth]

Im also feeling that I've lost most of my pg symptoms over the weekend except for the fatigue, praying its just stress masking the symptoms...

[niki_beth]

Well, I called my Dr. this morning to inform him of my ER visit on Sat. (I had talked to him earlier on Sat, and he told me that I didnt really need an ER visit, but the spotting got heavier that day and I started to have cramping, my dh was worried so I gave in and went... really wish I wouldnt have) I only got to talk to the receptionist, and I feel like an idiot cause I feel as though I went against Dr. orders, but with the stress of spotting and DH I couldn't hold out. The receptionist really wasn't much help at all, she said she would let the Dr. know, but since we weren't in the area they wouldn't be able to get the results from the hospital that I went to... Doesn't sound like the Dr. will be calling me back either which stinks cause I would like his take on the results of the u/s (no yolk sac) that is what really worries me, I've seen SO many conflicting reports as to whether or not a yolk sac should be visible by this point. Trying so hard to stay positive, but this is SO hard. DH is back to work today, so its just me and the kids here. I keep telling myself I should just relax and enjoy spending time with the kiddos I have, but I am just dying inside right now. Just praying I am stressing for nothing.

[butterflybabies]

Hi, I just wanted to say I will be praying for both of you!
Sticky Sticky Baby Dust to both!

[niki_beth]

Thanks for your reply, it does make me feel better that I'm not alone, but I hate to hear that you are going through this too. The waiting just ***** doesn't it!! And it makes us so concious of EVERY symptom we do and don't have... UGH!! Sounds like we will be waiting together... I will definitely keep you updated, please do the same for me!

[Lance06]

OH nik...we are in the same boat. Just hang in there girl...and try to keep yourself busy in the mean time while the time goes by. that is what I am doing...trying to enjoy the weekend with my daughter and hoping to see something on the u/s next week!

let me know how things progress!

I too will not be able to handle another m/c, mine nearly killed me!