adding new pictures of Daniel (and a slight vent)

[Joyce49788]

well i know i dont get on here as much as i would like to, BUT i am just updating some photos... a few that i had taken at the hospital during delivery(c-section), so please view some at your own risk...lol...although i think it is kinda cool others would not...soooo anyhow.  Daniel is growing fast is already 2 weeks old and over his birthweight... will be 9lbs before i know it...lol as he is up to 8lb 14oz already.

i have been fighting a low grade fever and a migraine for the last couple of days and feeling pretty crappy, sweating one minute and freezing the next... it stinks... and Daniel isnt wanting to sleep at night, and so i dont get much sleep unless i bring him into bed with me, plus on top of that i am trying to pump as much breastmilk for him as possible to get my supply up since i stopped nursing for a week... and then we will try to get him back to the breast which from what i am hearing really isnt as easy as it seems... ugh can anything else happen??? wait forget i said that... my almost 7 yr old is in NC with his dad and July 7 i have to go to court cause his dad is trying once again to get custody on the grounds that i have another child and am by myself... ugh!!!!! it wont hold up in court but they have to try to make my life miserable. plus they are telling my son that at 7yrs old he can talk to the judge and then the judge will let him choose where he wants to live... ugh why must people brainwash young children... it is sooo not fair...

anyhow sorry for the rant that was included with the update...lol
hope all is going well with everyone

[Joyce49788]

hmmm something i am gonna have to look for...thx for the suggestion

[kylesMom09]

One thing i have noticed that she really like is a "womb sounds" bear.  I got it at walmart and it really seems to cut down on the amount of times she cries before she falls asleep.  I don't use it all the time b/c i don't want her to have to have it to fall asleep, just when she is upset.  Other than that i don't have much else i use.

[Joyce49788]

how do you let a 3 week old (or 5 weeks in kyra's case) sooth themselves???  if i dont go straight in and get daniel he will just open up and scream like he is in pain or something... i mean i dont pick him up when he is just whimpering but once he starts screaming i do go get him... or wake up and change him and give him bottle, ect... last niught he slept til 1 AM (while i was watching TWILIGHT....OMG GREAT MOVIE) and as soon as i went in and laid down he was up... wtf? it is like he is such a light sleeper that if he hears me moving on my bed he is up and needing changed, fed, ect....

i am planning on getting some 3 week pics today (he is 3 weeks old today...lol) and if possible i am gonna try to get a pic of my csection scar, it is NOT a pretty sight... hoping that my general surgeon can fix all of that scar tissue when she does my hernia repair. not sure if i am gonna need the repair... cant tell if my ob/gyn sewed me up tight enough...lol... but i guess i will have to see when i go to my appt on the 30th.

as far as stress well i am not counting on that lessening any time soon... got a note on my door yesterday that if i dont get a bill paid then my water is gonna be shut off monday... i just DO NOT have any money to pay these bills and really have NO IDEA what to do... i will be going into town today i think and seeing what organizations can help me... with diapers, wipes and household items the small amount of money i do get with UGH public assist isnt enough to pay ONE bill let alone ALL of them... so i really do not know what i am gonna do but first step is to ask for help from these places. UGH i hate this part of being BROKE... hoping that soon i can get ahold of Unemployment and wont have to worry about things for awhile then... this really STINKS.  anyhow sorry for the long post AGAIN....  i just dont know how to stop myself from typing out everything that is on my mind... hmmmm maybe i need to journal it instead of randomly typing it out...lol... we shall see.

[kylesMom09]

Sorry you are having such a hard time getting daniel to sleep for you...Kyra is almost 5 weeks and the night before last slept all night and then last night decided not to sleep at all.  I don't know what was different, but i am hoping we can get back to sleeping all night!!  I even tried having her sleep with me last night in a chair and she wanted nothing to do with it.  Also I haven't heard of crying too much causing a hernia, but I let Kyra self soothe herself before hers had fallen off.  Some night it took almost 30 minutes for her to settle herself and it didn't cause any problems other than making me feel really bad.  They treated her the same way at the hospital and she was 3 1/2 weeks before hers fell and now she will still have a little oozing from time to time, but it looks great so I haven't been terribly concerned about it.  Hopefully things get better and less stressful for you here shortly so you can start feeling better!!  BTW he is too adorable!!

[Joyce49788]

thanks you guys... i just dont understand why people have to mess with me all the time, i mean ex's... for awhile Daniels dad was stalking me online and harrassing me... just because i was tired of the abuse he was dealing to my kids (name calling, throwing things at my daughter,ect...) that i finally had enough. he was even stalking me here on medhelp, trying to leave messages like "baby stealer" just because he left us (even though it was for the best and was a mutual decision) and i didnt tell him that it was a boy... what does it matter when he isnt gonna be part of the child's life anyhow?  i just dont get it... i am a good mom, basically a good person... yeah i have made mistakes but who hasnt.. i have never purposely hurt anyone and have NEVER hurt my children... i dont even believe in spanking. i am just tired of "looking over my shoulder" to make sure that someone isnt watching my every move.
there are times that i am afraid to discipline my 7 yr old because if he tells his dad, will they go even harder for custody.... ugh, and as i said i dont believe in spanking but i do believe that children should be disciplined when they do something wrong... back talking, cussing, throwing things, hitting, ect.... so how to discipline a child that the other parent (in my case his father and grandparents) are 9 times out of 10 telling him that he doesnt have to listen to me....?  and when i ask him if anyone has ever told him that he doesnt have to listen to me.. he says "i dont remember" so that is telling me that YES they are but he doesnt want to tell me cause he will get into trouble down there... and since they are constantly buying him stuff (new bikes, skateboards, game systems, ect...) he doesnt want to lose out on that stuff so he "plays a long"... that is just SOOOO not right... ugh i swear after last night i am gonna end up with a nervous breakdown....

last night... well lets see Daniel started fussing around 8-9ish and so i gave him a bottle... after a few minutes he started screaming and spitting bottle out, that kept up for a few and i figured he might have a tough gas bubble that wouldnt come up so i gave him some gas drops... no burps... ugh..was actually acting like he was in pain so i called the hospital and asked the pharmacist about dosage for tylenol and ibuprofen and got a dose of that in him... figuring that it couldnt hurt.... he ended up taking his bottle pretty well after that but it was still pushing 1 AM before he settled down and finally went to sleep... in my bed of course... and then i was able to get some sort of rest... i have been dealing with migraine and such for last few days cause of lack of sleep... so bad that my eyes really really hurt... i swear i dont remember my other kids being this difficult...

is it possible that even at 2 weeks old (17 days to be exact) that he could be teething already???  OR even though the doctor said she didnt think he had thrush in his mouth, it could be and is now causing him pain... i dont know but i DO know that i dont believe i can handle another night like last night... i was on the verge of tears and just really didnt know what to do... i am just always so tired... i am gonna start putting him in his crib to nap during day instead of bassinet, play pen or swing... and HOPEFULLY (FINGERS CROSSED) eventually he will just start sleeping in his crib.... also i am picking up a musical mobile today and so hopefully that will work too in self soothing....

what is that old saying???? that if you let a baby cry too long and too hard before the umbilical cord falls off it will cause a hernia or something like that??? is it true? Daniel's umbilical cord still has not fallen off and it is cause for concern at times... they used a blue/purple dye and it was suppose to be "care free" but it has been kinda icky so i have been cleaning it with alcohol... and coming up with this yellow yuck so i wonder if that is causing it to not heal as well... i dont think it is infection just ooze ...it doesnt stink and the area is not red... it is just really gross... so i clean it a few times a day to make sure all of that yuck is gone and call it good... i think it will fall off in the next 4-5 days but that will put him at about 3 weeks... and the rest of my kids always fell off within the first 7-10 days... ugh the joys of parenthood... sorry about the long post... i am just soooo tired and frustrated at the moment... would love to gather my kids up and head to canada or mexico or whatever... far far away from all of the BS of custody disputes and fathers who claim to want to be a part of a childs life but dont really want the responsiblities... ugh Calgon take me away!!!!!!!!!

[Jen133]

I have the same problem with Lourie's dad, kiki. He is never there and he tells her that he will pick her up and ends up canceling for some stupid reason.  She's 9 and she' getting to the point where she says "daddy is a liar" and really doesn't care anymore.  My husband treats her as if she was his own, and they love each other very much, and Joyce don't worry, they can't take your son away just because you had another baby and are by yourself. As long as you are providing for him, and have a roof on top of his head and he has clothes, food etc...... it will be very hard.  You are a great mother and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!!!

P.S. Daniel is adorable!!!! You just want to eat him up!!!

[kikicoates78]

LOL and I was just bragging that Addy was like 9 pounds at 2 months, thinking that was big! HAHA

Joyce I'm sorry your having such a rotten time, I have a horrible ex as well, the only difference is he would never want to be a full time dad, plus my kids would laugh at him if he ever brought it up. But on the bright side Daniel is adorable!!!!