Not sure if this is PPD talking or what

[Bri_1985]

I woke up this morning feeling... well, upset. My hubby and I have 4 kids now... 8, 5, 2, & 3wks. The 8 & 5 yr olds are mine from a previous relationship which I have my 5yr old and my hubby is hoping to have enough to adopt him officially someday... but my 8yr old girl is living with her bio grandparents because I lost custody of her before she was even a year old. CPS freaked out when discovering I was bipolar and hadnt been properly diagnosed til I was pregnant with her and so hadnt been properly medicated or treated until after I had her in 2005. I had trouble bonding with her as a mother because I was 19 going on 20 and just getting used to the meds I was put on. Anyway, I never get to see her except once or twice every other month. Usually Christmas and Halloween or when I can buy her school supplies.

My hubby has a son whom he pays child support for and he never gets to see him either. The last time he got to see his son was back in 2009. His son - my stepson - is now 17 and I know thats awkward as Im almost 28, but Ive never met him.

Im just feeling emotional I guess that my kids wont get to meet their big brother and he wont get to meet his younger siblings.

[Bree_05_15]

Just try and stay positive! (: focus on finishing what u need to so u can then put 100% of ur focus on ur daughter afterwards it will all work out!

[Bri_1985]

The only reason Ive not become more obsessed with the situation is that I keep in mind the three boys I have now who need me to keep a head on my shoulders for their sake. That and school and knowing that right now I cant provide for her like she needs.

[tomorrow264]

Good for you to be concerned for how she'd handle it. I think in the event that you do regain custody of her I would look into getting her a counselor that has dealt with similar situations. Its going to be very important for her to be able to maintain a close relationship with her grandparents.

[Bri_1985]

Im not 100% sure about the visitation rights involving my hubby's son. His ex skipped state the second she was granted full custody plus child support and he doesnt know where they are except just what state they're in.

As for my daughter, Ive been told by a lawyer that as soon as I am capable (living in our own home, financially capable, etc) then I can go to court to at least try to get my daughter back. Im not sure what they were able to read from the court papers from 8yrs ago but according to the lawyer I saw it wont be as hard as people think to regain my rights as her Mother. My only concern is her well being. I want nothing more than to have her with her brothers but how badly affected would she be? Last tine I saw her she was a happy girl, I dont want to see the smile go away.

[Bree_05_15]

Awe I'm so sry to hear all that just doesn't seem right would u be able to get ur oldest back from grandparents ? Nd hmm maybe one day u can get them all together don't give up faith!:) u never know nd I can't say I know how u fel cutz I haven't been in ur shoes but just stay positive (:

[tomorrow264]

That's a crappy deal. I don't think children should be kept from their parents unless the parents pose a threat to the child. You guys should still be allowed to see them a reasonable amount even if you don't have custody. Have you thought about going to court to try for more visitation?

[anabelcrts]

Aaww!!. I hope everything turns better for u guys.  I wish ya the best to get all ur lil ones together...