I didn't have that fear with my first, but I did with my second bc things didn't go exactly as planned with the first, so I was scared it was going to be awful again. Luckly it went super smoothly.
Is this ur first baby also?
no your not the only one... i was going through all of that in the beginning and recently started back up again... so your definitly not alone... it helps to talk about your fears though and not keep it in... at least that has helped me alot...