I don't know how much more I can take.

[shacacon]

I love my husband with everything that's in me but I really feel love is not enough sometimes. So heres my rant.

My husband works from home and is pretty busy stays up in a room all day rarely comes down except to eat or get something to drink. Or when hes leaving to go wherever he never tells me where hes going he jus says ill be back and he will be gone for over a hour everytime its almost the same amount of time everytime. An hour and a couple mins after each time. I Always go to bed alone and wake up alone while hes staying up all night supposedly working. Well lastnight I was helping him and I asked him why he had his alarm set for 3:30pm for sat and he automatically thought I was going through his phone said why are you going through my phone I told him I wasnt because he has a lock on his phone and Idk it then he explained to me that he uses that so he knows it times to go to the post office soon and I jus started assuming he was hiding something.  Hes not been spending much time with me or our kids lately or really since hes been back he moved to the beach and then he left me and the kids here at his moms. (But thats a whole different story) I have never really wanted so much sex in my life since I got pregnant it has changed and I want it every night and before he would always wake me up if he wanted it and i was sleeping but I woke up around 6 this morning and he wasnt in bed yet so I went to see if he fell asleep and ask him if he's coming to bed when I opened the door he had his phone in one hand and something else in his other hand I could figure what it was cause I was have asleep but it looked like a piece of clothing or a towel or something but he jumped and I asked what hes doing he said hes still working and took a break. The thing is it bothered me bc he didnt come to me for that play time so I can give him what he wanted cause I would have. And hes always got time to fool around with being on the phone or leaving the house but never has time for anything that involves us as a family. I seriously jus wanna give up on us but I find myself still hoping things will change I know they will. He can be an amazing hubby and father but he jus totally someone different with his friends. I know the potential he has. I jus dont know how much more I can take.  Am I overreacting I know my hormones are crazy right now but I feel cheated I guess you can say. I feel useles, I do everything a wife should and I still find myself lonely and married!  

[tat87]

@turkey this is my second marriage.  I had a very low tolerance for bs in my first. This marriage has taught me that I could have probably made it work with my ex. I commend your strong nature, I guess I'm just unconvinced that it's ever truly better.

[shacacon]

@turkey_club_0214 everytime I try to talk about how I feel he blows up and says hurtful things.  Its like my feelings dont matter. Im trying to stay positive and hoping he isnt hiding nothing.. but after lastnight I feel he is.

[turkey_club_0214]

Tat I know what u mean. My mom thinks that way too. I in the other hand, am tougher and expect a lot from my husband. Past relationships made me this way. This is our first baby and it's not like I would walk away just over a stupid fight, but I have very little tolerance for bs.

[shacacon]

We have had problems on and off. But I still stay through the bad bc our good times can be amazing but I didn't marry him to get a divorce.  Marriage is hard but I also feel im the only one trying to make it work.

[turkey_club_0214]

It sounds like he is being shady and just avoiding your questions. I would confront him and ask him why he is acting that way and that it has to change. My personal believe is that if he avoids the conversation again, he must be hiding something. I hope not. Just make sure you are firm and tell him that you are getting tired of his attitude.

[tat87]

I don't know what it is about pregnancy,  but it seems to be the hardest time on a marriage.  Some people are lucky and have it great. Others feel like their spouse is drifting away in a different direction. I know how you feel, but our problems were there before I when became pregnant.  A lot of the time I think about how much easier life would be for me if I just left, but then I think of my son and my unborn daughter, and know they deserve to have a family. A lot of people say that isn't enough of a reason to stay in an unhappy marriage, but in my opinion, if there hasn't been any cheating or abuse, I have to deal with the consequences of my decision to marry this person.