Girl you are no alone!! I have 2 children and now another on the way :))))!! God does everything for a reason even when we cannot figure out what that reason is..these amazing little lives we have growing inside of us are blessings from God himself! They say babies from heaven pick their mommy's and daddy's from above :) good luck sweetie!!
No I have a 2 yr old a 10 month old and am 17 weeks pregnant baby's are precious and after giving birth I don't even know if I could contemplate the other option. :( your not crazy sweetie everything happins for a reason even when we don't get it at all! Lol