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[mrspace24]

Not pregnant anymore.  Journal on by profile explains it all.  Thanks for being wonderful!  I wish everyone on here an incredibly healthy and happy 9 months.

[Lance06]

All I have to say is there is NO NEED for an apology......you are in a place right now where NO ONE wants to be..you poor thing..misleading or not....or not written to everyone's understanding should have brought people to ask and not assume.

I am SOOOO So sorry for your loss hun.Hang in there!

[pooket825]

I am truly sorry for your loss, and I am sorry people were calling you a liar and I may not be able to say much to ease your mind but I do believe when you have a misscarriage the way you did, I am sure that you can not remember everything that happened, cause you were in a state of shock that you lost all 3 of those beautiful babies, I know that I am not one of your closest friend but I do sympathize with you on the liar thing they should have just asked you instead of going behind your back. I do not mean to bring this up to you right now knowing that you lost your babies, but I might be preggo and I was wondering some of the symtoms you were having while you were preggo? I know that I should not be bringing this up to you knowing what you are going through, but I am having some lower abdomen pain, nausea (not throwing up), and my breast are so tender, and a regular bra is not helping. do you have any insight
thanks
tracie

[mrspace24]

The other thing that bothered me was that several people went behind my back talking about me instead of asking me straight out.  I find that slightly childish and it upset me.  True, I can't really control my emotions at the moment.  Not one bit.  But if people would have just been upfront with me it wouldn't have escalated into the drama that it became.  

Again, I appologize.

[mrspace24]

You are completely right.  This was the problem that I ran into.  I wrote the journal based purely on what I personally remember.  Please understand that I was no coherant for a lot of the weekend.  I do know that I heard my babies heartbeats through out the miscarriage.  Not the whole time, like I previously said.  That is purely my mistake and I'm so sorry about that.  What I remember as being the babies heartbeats slowly ticking away was actually my own heartbeat, slowing down because I had a bad reaction to the pain meds they gave me.  I was kind of in "la la" land.  I can assure you that I never ever meant to mislead people what so ever.  I took the journal down because I was cornered and called a liar on several fronts.  I don't want drama.  I'm not a liar by any means and I'm sorry for misleading people UNINTENTIONALLY.  Please accept my appology on that.  

They did track the heartbeats several times over the course of several hours since A and B were not gone yet.  They were hoping that they would pull through. But it didn't happen.  I am so very sorry for misleading people.  I can't say it enough.  After being questioned and cornered and accused, I talked with DH (who I was refusing to talk to about what happened) and he verified some facts for me.  We even called the doctor to get the right story.  Just because... honestly I was so out of it that my memory isn't the greatest.  I did hear my babies heartbeats, slow, and it was gut wrenching. But I did not hear it on the monitor for hours on end.

Please please please accept my appology.  If I get kicked off of Medhelp, then so be it.  But I'm not a liar.  I just didn't remember all that well.  

This is why I took down the journal and the story.  I wanted to get the real story from DH and from the doctor (since DH doesn't know a whole lot about medical baby stuff, he didn't know exactly what was happening at all times either).  

I hope that you all can accept my appology.  

[tbeards]

I think what may be throwing some people off is that you mentioned that the two babies were on monitors for a few hours and at your gestation (I think 10 weeks but can't remember) it would be very difficult to monitor when using the fetal abdominal monitors in L&D. At 27 weeks I went into L&D for contractions and they had a hard time picking up the babies because they said the babies were hard to pick up at that gestation because they are so small.

At any rate, I feel really bad for saying this but my first split second reaction to your journal was "really? they had a hard time picking up my babies at 27 weeks and that was 17 weeks later?" due to my experience but then realized there are other ways to monitor babies and know that it would take a truly disturbed person to make up such a horrible story. There was also a women on the boards a few months back or so that was making up stories and then she got kicked off of MH and then she kept coming back with fake profiles and would post about losing a child or miscarrying. Her last profile that I am aware of was again the loss of a child around 3 or 4 months after birth. In short, I think some people are gun shy around here when they hear of a tragic loss. It is too bad that a few bad apples spoils the bunch.

I hope you come back to the boards here with some good news. Even though you aren't carrying multiples now, you may be in the future and even if you carry a singleton, I am sure we would all like to hear from you will updates : )

Take care of yourself and hope you are doing well!

~t

[1st]

I am SO sorry for your loss.  I didn't get a chance to read your journal entry, but just wanted to say how sorry I am for you.  
-1st

[heatherlynn22]

i didn't get to read the journal but i'm sorry for your loss. i don't know the pain of loosing so i don't even know what i could possibly say besides i'm so sorry and i will keep you, your dh and your family in my prayers! if you ever need to vent or rant or just get stuff off your chest i can be here for you. i've been told i'm a good listener. lol even if it's through email i can do my best.

[mrspace24]

I'm sorry pookie... I wrote a journal entry and then got called a liar. So I made it private.  I didn't come to medhelp for drama.  I'll email you if you want.  I just don't want to deal with the drama.  I just had a really bad experience and I just am frustrated.

[pookie1121]

I dont see a journal entry about losing your babies?  - just a movie journal where you are rating movies?!?!

[tbeards]

I also just read your profile and I am truly sorry for your loss : (

[kindergal]

I just read your journal and am grieving for you and your husband.  Please take some much needed time for yourself.