Am I being rude?

[MelliMel18]

Here is the story. My best friend and i were pregnant almost at the same time. I mean we were about two weeks apart. Well two months ago i miscarried, and she didnt. Her pregnancy is going great.  Lately, I have been feeling a bit resentful towards her. I mean, i really do not want to be like that, but i just cant help it, i almost feel as if i didnt like her anymore. I know that is terrible, but every time we talk she always talks about her pregnancy, and her future baby. In a way, i feel she doesnt really consider my feelings.  I am still not over it, and i just wished we can talk about other things other than her baby.  And today, i really got mad at her. We were talking, and just recently she came back from vacation. She made a comment saying, "oh, i wish i can just be on vacation all the time."  I told her wouldn't that be nice. Then she said, "well i will be sort of on vacation in May (which is when her baby is due), but not really, i will have to be dealing with a crying baby.  I told her, "So WHAT", that should be something you are so excited about doing, then she said again, "yeah, but i wont have time for me, I will have to deal with a baby that will be crying all the time." I got so mad and told her, "What are you talking about, be thankful you have something so precious to look forward to. God, at least you have that to look forward to, I lost my baby, and am not even close to being pregnant".  "Just appreciate what God gave you".  I just got so mad that she is already complaining about the baby, ya know. I would of given anything for my baby to live. I am looking forward to being pregnant and being a mom.  Why is it that some women just cant appreciate the gift of getting pregnant, and having a healthy pregnancy?  While women like me, who lost her child, cant stand people who complain about being pregnant or having to deal with a crying baby?  I dont know, am i being rude and selfish?

[MelliMel18]

You truely are. I really appreciate all you and your support. Its nice to you, there are a few good ones out there :)

[cindy82]

just remb though there are a few good ones out there, dont leave us out, lol

[MelliMel18]

Yup, people are unbelievable, and so damn opinionated. How dare anyone judge you and what you went thru. Again, people are just so stupid. Slowly i am going to be so anti-people, and anti-social. I tell ya.

[cindy82]

i know how that is, i have had so called friends like that, its all about them. i know ex what your talking about

[MelliMel18]

We have been friends for like 7 years. She has always been there for me, but ever since this pregnancy, she has kind of been in her own world. And everything, and everyone around her takes the backseat.  She calls me all the time, and sometimes i wonder why she is calling me. I barely get a chance to talk about me or anything. And if i do talk about me or anything in my life, she is quick to turn it around and makes it all about her, once again. And yet i sit there and listen to her babble on and on. See, i can be a good friend to her, but why not the other way around?  I just dont get it. Oh well.

[cindy82]

what pisses me off is when people know your preg then find out you loose it then tell you: "well mabe you didnt need one in the first place" hello ive only been trying for a yr and seem to be doing fine with the ones i got. god people make me so mad grrrrrrr