OH NO!! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I do understand how you feel though. I have suffered two first trimester miscarriages and our first son was stillborn at 37 wks 5 days (cord accident) Please take some time to heal physically and mentally. Checking into Grief counseling or finding a pregnancy loss support group could do wonders to help you. I don't know how you are but for me the more I talked about what happened and our son the easier it became. There are tons of websites dedicated to the loss of a child.
We also have a miscarriage forum here where you can share your loss and grief with other women who understand. I'm posting a link below. I hope you have a support network of family and friends to get you through this time. If you need to talk or just want to vent you can PM me anytime. Again I am very sorry you are having to go through this. Losing a child is the worst pain a mother can feel. With time it does get easier. I find little things help me to get by...like lighting a special candle on his birthday every year. This coming august he would have been 9 years old.
http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Miscarriages/show/283