confused about everything

[bhenneker]

So I have two children on earth with me. 5 in heaven. I got pregnant at a young age and decided to keep my son born 2003 at 36wks then two years later I was in a abusive relationship and got pregnant again due to the situation I decided to get an aborting and leave the guy right away that was in 2005. Then is 2007 I met my now husband and in 2008 ended up pregnant had a m/c at 9wks. Then 4 months later got pregnant again and again lost it at 6 wks. In 2009 got pregnant again and was told my daughter was going to be born with chromosome problems she was born at 35wks with no problems just a third nipple (which i think is cute). Then in 2010 (unexpected) got pregnant again even though I was exclusively breastfeeding. On our honey moon (10wks) started bleeding which was caused by sub chronic hemorrhaging. Told everything was going to be fine. In Sept.(18wks) went into labour due to placenta abrupt ion (due to the bleed at 10wks). My daughter was born alive but because of her being so preterm doctors could not do anything she pasted away 1:36mins later. Then found out I ave hyperthyroidism which also would not have helped to the preterm labour because of it not being treated. I made it my mission to have another child. Nov. we found out we were pregnant again which worried me because when I was ovulating I had to go under radiation injections for a thyroid uptake. Which again ended in m/c. Now my doctor wants to zap my thyroids (which is a large amount of radiation put in my body to kill my thyroids.) But if I go ahead with that I will not be able to conceive. I don't know if I should just keep trying and then when I get pregnant again start meds to control my thyroids and then after birth (if I ever make it to that) then zap them. Or should I listen to my doctor and do the zapping??? Please help me. Also if I do the zapping then that will make me hypo which means under active which cause infertility (I know right now me and my husband have no problem getting pregnant very fertile). I don't want to have trouble getting pregnant or never have another child because of getting the radiation done. HELP Please

[avaortega407]

im sorry for all that youve been through. I personally if i really wanted another child would keep trying to have a baby the later do the zapping but also take in to consideration you already have to children that need you

[bhenneker]

My doctor is saying that the meds he want to put me on will cause problems if I end up pregnant because he will not work will me and put me on the lesser drug. He is being really subborn about it. And I have tried to find another ENDO doctor but there is no other ones where I live. That is the main reason why I think me and my DH will BD tonight (got a positive OPK yesterday). Because if I get pregnant now then he will have no choice to put me on the lesser drug.

[SunWorshiper_26]

I think because of the radiation you must be away from children, pregnant women and maybe the elderly for 48-72 hours. So it isn't something that would be forever.

I always suggest to anyway before having surgery or any radical treatment to get a second opinion. I think it is important that you dr understands your dilemma. Maybe try consulting with your OB as well. I personally don't know that I could give up on having children if I wasn't ready to. Why is it that you are not able to just use medication for your thyroid?  I know many people including my mother who have used prescription pills to regulate their thyroid.

I wish you the best of luck

[bhenneker]

*hope* not hold

[bhenneker]

I was just wondering what it was like (the zapping). I have been told i will not be able to be around my children because of the radiation is that true?
My doctor didn't explain alot about it will I be able to work ? if not how much time needed off? am I going to be sore?
And thank-you so much I to hold I get to hold another children in my arms that I get to bring home in a car seat not an urn.

[alaysha]

I'd get it done. Even causing you to have to try harder to get pregnant, it could also maybe help you carry the pregnancy to term. Either decision you choose though I hope you get to hold another baby in your arms soon!