terrified of having second c-section

[kaidins_mommy]

I have a handsome two year old little boy who i love more than anything and i am now 8 weeks pregnant and very excited but i am also still terrified from my first c-section. I was admitted to the hospital at 38 weeks because my blood pressure was 190/110 apparently i had misdiagnosed pre-eclampsia. So they induced my labor finally after 24 hours my water broke but i never dilated after 30 hours total i was only 5 cin. So they decided to do an emergency c-section. After they cut me open and took my son out my uterus collapsed and i hemorrhaged  they had to give me 2 units of blood and work for over an hour and a half to try to get my uterus to harden. They ended up using what they called a uterus balloon for about 24 hours and then took it out and everything was fine. But due to the nurses leaving me sit forever after my water broke i developed a blood infection and had to stay on an iv being   pumped full of medication for a week all of this was a horrible experience and I'm afraid if it happens again that i won't be so lucky and that i will lose my life. I am literally terrified i love my son so much and i love this baby that is growing inside of me. I couldn't possibly imagine leaving them behind. Does anyone have any experiences like this or any words of wisdom to help me get through this?

[kaidins_mommy]

Thank you for telling me about your experience, unfortunately i will always have to have a c-section because I'm too small to have a baby naturally but i will take your advise and talk with my Dr and hopefully the same thing doesn't happen again i have my first appointment on the 19th the Dr that delivered my son moved an hour and a half away so i have to see someone new but depending on what they say i may be making the long drive to see the dr that i want and has experience. Congratulations and good luck hopefully you have a safe delivery with this little one.

[sorenr]

What a shame you had to go through that.

I didnt have quite such a bad experience as you, but I did have a pretty hard time delivering my son, they ended up inducing me, I wasnt able to push him out as I was exhausted and his head was in the wrong position so they had to give me an emergency spinal which left me with nerve damage and they used forceps which tore the umbilical cord and also ripped me to shreds, I lost a lot of blood. It took me a long time to recover mentally from it.

When I was expecting my second, I just kept telling myself it really couldnt go much worse than the last time, lo and behold, I had a 4hr labour with only gasand air, and I had only a tiny graze. It couldnt have gone much better!

With you having had pre eclampsia, you do have a greater chance of developing it again unfortunately, but hopefully they will keep a better eye on you and if you do need to have another section, perhaps there are measures they can take to help prevent the problems you experrienced with your uterus? Its definitely worth your time having a good long chat with your doctor or midwife about all that went wrong and ways to prevent the same things happening again.

I know my tale is nothing compared to the trauma you suffered, but I wanted you to know that it is possible to have a good experience after a bad one, I hope that the same can happen for you. I'm 39+1wks with my third and really nervous about how this labour will go, fingers crossed its as good as the last time!