Dear Bernard,
I think you need to follow your instincts.
For hundreds of years, people have been making choices to stay in situations where they could become ill or hurt or killed. Think of people taking care of the flu victims in 1918. Or the firemen in tower on 9/11. Or the lovers of people who contracted AIDS, before there was anything like a cure. Assuming you resumed your sexual relationship with this woman, you would be in the same position.
No one can make this decision for you, since there is no absolutely right decision, ethically, spiritually, or in any other dimension I know.
However, the real issue may be that you more fundamentally don't respect the woman, because of her previous associations, especially the one where she got the Herpes. If that's the case, leave. Otherwise, imagine how you'd feel if you got herpes. The patients I've had with this disease are quite unhappy, anxious, and angry because the problem is unfixable and goes on FOREVER.
Only if your dedication to this woman, or commitment to a principle, is so great that you truly didn't care, would it make sense to stay. Is this the case? Do you really love her that much?
And remember that relationships have a way of changing in our minds once something dire or catastrophic happens, in which case one is left with the symptom but no longer the loving relationship to use it in.
So if you're going to “man up” about anything, make it about being realistic, and absolutely relentless in discovering the truth about your feelings. Again, there's no right or wrong, just the need for total honesty and a fiercely clear look at the consequences, either way.
Sincerely,
Dr. P.
Dear Bernard,
Many thanks for the kind words.
No books yet, but working on some things . . .
Please feel free to reach me any time, if I can be of help with the issues we've been discussing.
In any case, don't let the problems develop too long without attending to them, ok? Your body and your life are PRECIOUS!
Regards,
Dr. P.
Doctor,
I find the things you are saying extremely intelligent. Have you written any books? If so, I'd like to purchase one. I visited your website and I really enjoyed reading through all that. If you have not written a book yet, I think you should. I'd be the first to make a purchase.
I don't know if I'm ready for therapy right now but perhaps at some point in the near future.
Thanks again for all your comments.
Dear Bernard,
I believe that some loves last forever, and some are transient. It is a very variable thing, and depends on the personalities and souls of the people involved.
Purely romantic love does seem to be transient, probably because the balance of the hormones involved shift as time goes on. That doesn't mean love dies, but it does transform into a different, and sometimes even more rewarding, experience for the people involved.
Cordially,
Dr. P.
Thank you Doctor.
Your comments suggest to me that you don't believe relationships are intended to last a lifetime, and that love is a transient emotion that will pass over?
Dear Bernard,
I've reviewed your communications about this matter both to me and on in various departments on Medhelp. So I'd like to briefly summarize and make a recommendation.
I believe you do have a tendency to become infatuated. And yes, it seems like your emotional vulnerabilities do overpower your rational side. It may be that your risk aversion simply breaks down at times, and your needs pop out all at once, impulsively. Also, I don't think you see this woman clearly, because of the infatuation. For these reasons, I think you're in a fairly dangerous position RE the decisions you are making concerning both your relationships and the Herpes. It's serious business.
It does sound like you need professional help. I agree, and am very glad you see, that it's important to get some clarity before you make moves that are irreversible. I notice we're both in the Boston area. Call me if you'd like to consider doing some therapy. Reach me through my email, via my smartrelationshipdecisions.com website, or directly via my cell phone, at 617-308-6901. If you'd prefer someone else, I'd be happy to recommend a competent colleague.
In any case, I urge you to do some targeted work before your unresolved issues land you in some VERY uncomfortable places.
Sincerely,
Dr. P.
Thank you, Dr. Pomerance, for your sincere remarks.
I'm curious, what do you think it means if she told me about her condition after 5 dates (a month after knowing her), and I decided to enter into a relationship (sexual). I am a VERY risk-adverse individual, so my behavior was COMPLETELY out of character. Does that sound like a strong infatuation? A strong seduction? I cann't explain my behavior. The same incident happened 5 years prior and I stopped talking to the woman (a different woman) on a dime. Can I infer that one of my weaknesses and vulnerabilities is that at the wrong times, my emotions overpower my rational side? Since the beginning of my relationship with my gf, I have withdrawn from the outside world because I am internally embarrassed and somewhat ashamed of myself. I have also noticed a drop in my self-esteem (and I haven't even contracted it). I am operating at sub-optimal performance, and it clearly is not healthy for me.
Does it sound like I need therapy? For some reason, I can't make this decision. I'm really going through an internal struggle, and my biggest fear is by the time I resolve the conflict, it will be too late.
Thanks again.
Then there's the other view. My gf has expressed on a number of occasions that she wants to marry me. Doctors have stated that herpes is non-deadly and that in long-term relationships it shouldn't be of worry. Further, my Dr. told me that there's 1/4 chance the next girl will have herpes.
We have a lot of similarities, have a lot fun when we're with each other, and generally everything is really good. Like I said in my previous post, the primary issue I have (other than herpes) is her sexual past -- many partners. While I am not a virgin, I have always taken my sexual health very seriously. I do not think it is fun, nor cool, to engage in unprotected sex with someone whom has likely had multiple partners (I hope I did not insult anyone who disagrees; if I did, I apologize).