Im dealing with jealousy and anxiety regarding relationship
Let me start by giving my past experience and hers.
1.) I was cheated on twice, 1 was girlfriend of 7 years. Second was couple month Gf.
2.)She has only been in one serious relationship, 9 months. Every other one was 1 month a piece.
3.)She has had a lot of Sexual experience with one night stands casual sex etc. approx 65 men.
4.)I have poor self image and confidence in myself.
5.)She gets or has gotten texts often from men, she thinks they just want to be friends.
So im with my girlfriend and she is in a male driven occupation. She is in training right now for her work. There are study groups which is male dominated. She will receive texts from men (school related etc). My jealousy and anxiety levels go nuts. I feel as if she will leave me eventually for someone who is better looking/ more to offer (someone with higher education as herself). She tells me all the time that she loves me deeply, she wanted me to move with her to her training facility states away (which i did). My fear is if im working and she is on her weekend and with her study friends that drinking will be involved and will potentially turn into more like "wow hes cute, and flirting heavily".
Hello. Here's my advice. To move beyond your feelings of jealousy you are going to have to bravely confront and overcome your own feelings of insecurity. Jealousy and the fear of being cheated on is something you are carrying around within you. Which means, nothing your girlfriend does or doesn't do will actually make these feelings go away. We often think that other people should change the way they act to make us feel better; but this just makes them feel manipulated, controlled, and eventually resentful. Plus, the truth is, she can't make this issue go away for you. You have to do that.
It is not surprising that your feelings of jealousy and fear are coming up with this woman; that is what happens--our issues emerge with the people we love. I would start by exploring within yourself your fears around being left behind and losing love. These fears are probably something you have felt in other relationships, so I would get really clear on when and where you have felt similar feelings, and try to understand where this experience came from. This first wound of losing love has now created a fear within you that it will happen again. And because you carry this fear with you all the time, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. You project your fear onto your partners and can't seem to get passed it.
YOU are going to have to soothe this part within you that is scared of losing love. You are going to have to catch yourself when you start to get jealous, and make an effort to combat this old fear-based belief. If you don't start confronting this fear, it will continue to show up again and again, in this relationship and in others too. And when you do confront it and start to move beyond it, your experience in relationships will get much, much better. A therapist can be of great help to you to move beyond this place where you are stuck. You can do it.
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