Guilt, Trust, Love

[bennie123]

Hi,
My boyfriend and I were together for four years, he recently broke it off with me because he found e-mails that i sent to my exboyfriend last year and in 2007. I feel so guilty, it was all to confusing...My-ex was like a good friend to me who was there when i needed him, i guess he filled a void that by BF did not. Also, my Bf could never be sure about his life and what he wanted. He was good to me though, we had more good times than bad times. Also I had to deal with situations with him also. I did not realise how much he loved me until he found those e-mails. Even though he did things to me to ,Istill feel really bad about hurting him and our trust. He is haveing a hard time forgiving me. Not to mention he was out of the country when this happened and he said he is not coiming back to our country. So it haas beena month and I have not dealt with this face to face only via phone and e-mails. I know that this is the man I want to marry, but I am afraid that I blew it. I miss himlike crazy and only prays are keeping me sane. I cry everyday...i just need to let go because I don't know how to fix this.

[reau]

p.s
its good to cry. sometimes laughter is not the best medicine.
too much of something is bad. so crying everyday is not healthy.
there are a lot of reasons to be happy. :D  
instead of thinking of your boyfriend, count your blessings.

[reau]

ive been there. for me, once a man gets hurt, its hard for them to forgive and regain the trust. you have stepped on your boyfriend's ego and pride. not like us women, when we get hurt, we can forgive easily and give another chance.

my advice is, dont dwell too much on your emotions right now. dont let the situation sink in. just let it go. divert your mind. so you wont go crazy, keep yourself busy. trust me, ive been there. give your boyfriend some space. if he really loves you, one day he will talk to you and forgive you.. this is just a test in your relationship which you must go through. this will make you a stronger person. so you have to fight it. be strong. love yourself. dont revolve your world on him. you dont own him. nobody owns anybody. just do your part, try to save the relationship. keep the communication open, be patient. but if he insists to cut the contact with you and will never come back to ur country, then so be it. your have to face that reality and deal with it. but dont worry, he may be bitter right now,but then he will come to his senses. love conquers all. if he loves you, he will come back to you.

keep on praying.
i know you will be fine. i know..