Grow Fonder * not stronger
It sounds just like sinking into ppd, however that should only last a week or so if it persists it could be serious signs of depression, I'm pregnant now and grew up hard with a lot of mental issues and sometimes I can feel the same emotions seeping in that I can only remember having during my deepest set of depression, wanting to be alone or with someone you feel safe with (your child) hating the people around you and finding excuses to be mad at them just so you can get away from them, isolating yourself isn't something that would help but getting some "fresh air" could, in other words distance makes the heart grow stronger, you live with this man you're in a very serious part of your life with him perhaps find a gf or family member you can go stay a day or two with get some space and clear your head, I get scared the same things sometimes I scream and cry and just want to hurt my partner and sometimes I worry I'm only with him for the baby but when I get space when I'm alone I feel incomplete and I just want to be back with him again
Cng,
I suggest you seek counseling asap as this is very concerning.
Do you have any history of depression and/or anxiety?
I'm sorry you're having a hard time. It sounds like you could be depressed which is common after having a baby... If these feelings are new since having your baby this is probable... Can you speak to your doctor?
I think birth brings on a lot of changes. You both lose sleep, and that combined with the out of whack hormones and all that is needed to care for a newborn, anything beyond that can become overwhelming, anger-inducing, and annoying. Your husband sounds like he misses you and doesn't quite know how to express it.
How long ago did you give birth?