I'm going to try to shorten the story as much as possible but give the important details.... Quick advice is appreciated because this post is time sensitive.
Me -21yo multi racial female. Raised catholic, private schools ( all girls high school) educated parents with high expectations ( I'm currently not meeting them), split family but I know and have been raised by both parents... History of Anorexia, And I have OCD ( controlled ) I'm well spoken always had friends and not bad looking
Him- 26yo multi racial, Adopted by older Caucasian couple at 3yr , well educated, has masters, slightly arrogant and was a total play boy, he has 2 sons ages 6 and 11 mos
2 yrs ago we met through an online dating site , we were attracted to each other but it took a while for our personalities to click once they did it was great, he is very guarded with his feelings we became physical before we had a chance to decide what we were and after 3 weeks I decided I didn't want to be with someone who was guarded and didn't seem to even want to make the commitment of being exclusive 6 weeks later I found out I was pregnant, at 19 yrs old... I had an abortion due to the strong medication I had been on, my age, and the lack of support, it really ate me up for months after...... Fast forward he calls me out of the blue 4 months ago apologizes tells me he would like to make an effort.. I have denied all efforts but after 4 months of him being persistent and seeming serious I agreed to see him today at 4 to talk, walk and go to happy hour....... The main problem is I find myself worried about what he is going to think of me when really he is the one who should be worried ... I need advice please.