Sex for release-

[Blackburn_Rovers]

Sex used to be a thing I craved...I always thought about it, the simple things turned me on.
I would go into the office and see a close fitting skirt, just a hint of a nipple, a woman’s heat from leaning over me to look at the computer, a woman’s smell, a profile of a woman’s breasts.  These things would sometimes make me retreat to the men’s room to masturbate. I masturbated at least five times a day at minimum.  I enjoyed it.   The sexual tension I felt all the time never subsided.  I enjoyed the tension. This was after my ex told me to go, I still had sexual cravings before but I satisfied them with her.  Always to her specifications, and always the way she wanted, I always pleased her first.
When I started my new job, I started mixing in with people I work with.  Keeping distance, yet be friendly, still showing or feeling no emotion.  I am in good shape, I work out, I play sports, and I watch what I eat.  I really don't have trouble meeting women; I even met my girl friend at work.  I had sex with many women after starting my new job; I tried many things, but never felt emotion.  I was more like something I did, because I was a man, and it made me normal.  To me it is like working out, I don't really get enjoyment out of it, nor do I dislike it.  Sex now is just another physical thing I do, very much like sports.  The women I had sex with had no idea, I always pleased the women first before I got off, orally or traditionally.  Then I would have sex to orgasm.  I would try anything short of the scat and food stuff.  They never knew the difference.
My question is this wrong; do you really have to feel to have sex?

[Happy2girls]

You may want to research sexual addiction.  Your apathy signals a problem and my guess is that you already know that hence the post.  In your other post you mentioned that you don't feel depressed, the implications was you are more indifferent than sad.  But depression does not always involve intense sadness, a lot of times people who are depressed have a lack of feeling, a certain numbness.  I know from experience.  

[Julius_C]

Is your name the soccer team in the UK?

I know what sexual tension is like in the office.  I thrive on it.  No one knows.  I like the way a man or a woman looks at me when I know I look good.  It is natural.  Sex should not be used as a sport, women are not play things.  I don't think you meant that, but some of us women associate sex with feelings, you might think about that.  One night stands can be dangerous, physically, medically, and emotionally.  I read your other posts.  I believe your are genuine.  You really do want advice, you write some pretty dark and revealing thoughts, but I think under your cool, and "fixed personalit" you still have issues.  I think you are almost there.  But sex for release, it makes it sound like you are just seeding a plant, popping a zit.  
I can share with you that I once had a long term boyfriend while I was at Wellesley.  I met this guy at a dance back in 92,  we had the dance every fall.  We dated till the end of my junior year.  I found him cheating with a gilr from MIT.  I lost my mind, and opened my legs.  I understand, I think that you kinda did the same in your own brutish male way.
Don't worry, it happens more than you think.
BTW-GO RED SOX!