For years I have had the feeling that I was sexually abused as a child. I cannot recall anything happening to me during my childhood, but the feeling has stuck with me for years.
The first time I was penetrated, I think I was 15, but it's like I didn't feel anything. I did not bleed, I cannot recall feeling any pain. As far as I can remember, this guy didn't have a problem penetrating me (a much older guy than I was).
For years I have tried to make sense of what happened that day. I cannot remember things that occur during my early childhood (I guess most of us canont).