Your BF needs to seek therapy if he is telling you he wants to end it all.With the right therapy & meds he can get better.All the best.
Amen. When we become partners with someone, married or not, there is that "in sickness or health" implicit promise. We don't promise "If you get sick, I will think that is very irritating of you and consider leaving." Please keep working together on finding him a counselor he can actually get some value from, and getting him proper meds. Also, if he is at home all day every day with three kids, please re-think that too -- child rearing is hard work, not the taking-care-of part, but the entertaining-them-so-they-don't-tear-the-house-apart-when-you're-grabbing-a-shower part, is very hard. Makes you feel like a servant, and a somewhat ineffectual one at that. See if you two can put your heads together and find him some work that makes him feel more autonomous.
Hi there. Sweetie, he has a medical condition like any other. Depression is real and perhaps it goes further into the area of bipolar. I think you help him and don't punish him for being so 'sick' that he plotted a suicide plan.
I would insist he see his doctor again and being medication again. I would want him followed by a psychiatrist and not just a gp. And I think the bargaining chip is that this is how to keep him safe and the family together.
If it is true that your relationship has been good for 10 years and all of this started two months ago (which concerns me about how well you are emotionally involved with him yourself because you didn't notice his depression)---- then you stick together and help him rather than jump ship because he is suffering mental health issues.
One in four American adults suffer depression or anxiety or both. One in four take antidepressants. It is not unusual or shameful. Nor is it a reason for a spouse to jump ship. I get that he had a suicide plan and that is scary as all get out. But now you work the problem.
Perhaps he is unfulfilled being a stay at home dad. Perhaps he finds employment outside the home and you either seek part time hours or find full time child care. I was a stay at home mom when my husband traveled a good deal and often internationally. At times, to be honest, I was a little resentful. Before kids, I too had a career and now I was at home with baby food on my shirt, bags under my eyes and my husband was having dinner in a nice resturant in France. Maybe staying at home full time isn't his thing and he needs to be encouraged to find what feels right for him regarding that.
I would again, encourage him to see a psychiatrist. To begin his therapy again. But I would try to have more of a team spirit about his condition rather than making him into a danger to the family and someone to be angry at for something he can't control. That suicide call is a blessing dear. it was a wake up call for you. Because even if he is out of the house and committs suicide, you have the utter sadness of fatherless kids to deal with. Now you know he needs some help and yes, your life just got more complicated. But rise to the occassion and be supportive rather than angry.
good luck