I was in rehab a while ago… I was court ordered there for 6 months. 5 months into my recovery, I got into a relationship with me therapist. I thought he loved me, and I thought I loved him. He would check me out of the rehab at his convinience… I didnt realize it then, but it was only so he could have his way with me. I didnt realize it then, but I now know that he was pressuring me to do what he wanted. he didnt force me, but I didnt want to disapoint or upset him. And i felt like i needed to show him i was grateful for the risk he was taking to be with me and take me out of the facility sometimes.
He always reminded me that he could lose his job and i had to keep us a secret. he promised me that we would be able to tell the truth very soon (but that day never came).
He pre-read all the writing assignments I had to turn in to make sure I didnt reveal anything…
When i wanted to tell people about us and my roommate found out (when she over heard us talking late at night)… the next day I was kicked out. Even after i was kicked out for no evident reason… I still kept our secret (as he promised me it was all a misunderstanding and I would be readmitted).
I kept his secret til it was too late for me to go back and I had to face the consequences of being kicked out of the program.
I feel so violated… I can see how vulnerable I really way, and how stupid. I dont know how that happened… I dont know what to do, but i need to do something. There should be a law against this… Any thoughts or ideas???