How can i feel better?

[mikecarolan]

My best friend Commited suicide by hanging himself
And there isnt a day where i dont think about it. I want to remember the good times with him,
But all i picture is him being hung. Sometimes it isnt that bad But other times i cant sleep at night
Because i think about my family being hung all the close ones to me being hung, This is not because
i feel sorry for myself, or because im attention seeking,
im 16 and i should be happy. But i cant because everywhere i look just always somehow relates to
people hanging themselves. Sometimes i have really bad images in my head, and bad dreams
of when my best friend is in my dreams. And i wake up feeling confused and upset.
its been 6 months since its happened but i cant stop thinking about it all through the day.
I find it really hard to be happy. And sometimes feel terrible.
I really need some help to try and get it out of my head. If i get it out my head i might have better night sleeps?
what can i do?
please reply asap

[margypops]

You have a handle on what is wrong, this is part of loosing someone close to you, it takes time, you have to simply 'be " dont fight it, you have to grieve, and accept that this awful thing happened to your friend. You said a very true thing "I really need some help to try and get it out of my head" in other words you realise it is your thoughts making you feel bad , so next time you find yourself dwelling on his death/obsessing about it, tell yourself "STOP" I will not do this'  give your self a min or two, then distract your self doing something, ground yourself, Its Impossible to experience any negative feeling without first creating a corresponding negative thought.When you go to bed, visualise something nice, a happy place, maybe a special garden a Beach, picture yourself in that place ,walking along,smelling the flowers or the ocean, stay there... its warm and comfortable in your place...do this each night it will become a habit, you will fall asleep...its called visualisation.Good luck let us know how you are doing..