Update

[vstevens500]

jade59 and kathyjo hello to you both, just wanted to drop in and say HI to you both.  Today is 100 days for me.  Kind of funny that after this long, I still love the thought of smoking and it would be so easy to pick one up but I know one puff and I would be history.  I am proud of myself since this is an amazing thing for me.  I am struggling to maintain my weight and have put on about 3 lbs (big freaking deal) so the month of Feb I am going to try and loose that.  My gosh if I can quit smoking I can loose 5 lbs.  Hope all is good with you both.  It seems one of you have started again and I can so relate to that since I have started and stopped, 1,000 times at least.  Take care, love to you both, Vicki

[Jade59]

Hey Vicki!  So happy you checked in!!  I've been thinking of you off and on and wondering how you're doing :)  Big huge congrats on your 100 days!  That's so awesome.  I bet you feel just great!  

Yes, that's me who relapsed. *hangs head in shame*  It would never be Kathy Jo who relapsed, I'm confident of that one :)  But I'm not too ashamed to stop posting or give up because I know now, I am not alone in relapsing.  It's only been a little under a month of smoking everyday and I feel terrible with a capital T.  I am ready to try again and I've only had a few today.  Man, this has all turned out to be much more difficult than I ever dreamed.  The anxiety and anger feel impossible to deal with, it gets so severe.  I have not relaxed about it though and can only try again and use this relapse as a learning experience in handling my emotions and maybe try something new.    

This will be my fourth time trying in 2 1/2 yrs.  I just hope to God this next try will be my last and I don't turn into someone who has tried 1000 times...no offense :)

Best of luck with your weight loss!!  Really glad you checked in.  You too, are an inspiration and I'm so very proud of you.  Keep up the great work!

You take good care now...♥

[kathyjo]

Wonderful Vicki, congrats to you, WooHoo!
It's such an awesome accomplishment : ) You should be extremely proud of yourself ; )

The weight will level off and 3 lbs. is really not bad. As for the crave. It's tough, some days worse then others, but given that you have already fought them off for 100 days, then you know what it takes.
I have a little more than 2 years and I rarely think about them anymore. My stress level is more intense than when I quit, but my reaction isn't to reach anymore. That's a huge accomplishment for me : )

Keep it up girl, I'm so proud of you!