What should I do? I think I'm depressed.

[liveforever]

         I'm a seventeen year old girl and I think I might be depressed. I don't do drugs or drink any alcohol, and I don't cut myself. I am a fairly popular kid in highschool. I used to think I was normal, but I just realised today that I haven't been acting like myself lately. My grades have dropped (I used to get 90's, now I barely get 70's) because I have trouble concentrating. I have been feeling angry and have had many mood swings that my friends and family have noticed. I cry myself to sleep for absolutely no reason. I often feel very sad. I'm not suicidal, however I have thought about it (just of what would happen, not of actually commiting it). I don't go out anymore, I barely call or text my friends, and I have been a little unsociable lately. I used to want to apply to a very competitive college but now I don't think I'm smart enough. The activities I used to enjoy I avoid now. I was at a concert a week ago, one that I have been dreaming to go to all my life, because they're British and never come to the US, and while in line, I seriously thought about just going home and sleeping. I also have noticed that my sleeping habits have changed, I can barely sleep. My eating habits haven't changed much; I used to be really thin, and I have gained ten pounds, but I think that is really normal, you can't even tell I gained weight. I've been feeling really sad, and thought that the whole world has been bleak and lifeless. I feel like the world is experiencing a great depression, however when I asked someone about if they remember being happier a year ago, they replied that they feel the same.

I do not want to admit to my family that I am feeling depressed, because I think they will feel like I want attention. That's the opposite of what I want. I have been trying to hide my feelings as much as possible but aparently it's not working because people have noticed I don't act like I did before.

However, that being said, I'm not sulking around 24/7, I do go to work, and have conversations with people. So what should I do? Should I try to see if it wears off? I don't really think it is that important or serious to see a doctor or go on medication. Is there a way to cure it by myself? I don't really want anyone to know that I am depressed unless I need to. Also therapy wont work; I'm just not that type of person.

[Helpmeplease113]

I am a 17 year Old girl and this kind of sounds like me! Ive been with my boyfriend for around a year an 4 months now and I love him to pieces but we spend so much time together and it feels like my friends have grown apart of me I try and get into activities with them but they always seem to make me feel like they don't care! I have also been through a family were my dad has an alcohol problem and it's really affecting me! I have also been taking the pill and I think makes me have my mood swings too! I keep crying 24/7 to my boyfriend and he keeps asking me what's wrong and I seriously don't know! I seriously don't know what to do!

[indigo101]

Hi im 14 and i am very similar to you, I really want to see a physocologist or therapist but i dont want my parents to know, I dont even trust them. I used to be really outgoing wen i was younger and now i want to live on the streets and be a prostitute. I can barely sleep at night and feel like im not living life to the fullest like other 14 year olds. Im in yr 9 at school and i dont tlk much in class its been like this since yr 7. I feel like my mum is just using my dad for money and she always hangs out with other guys and i once caught her kissing. I love my dad but i think he just made the wrong choice with my mum. I think im depressed i recently bought a dog to help me when i take my dog or a walk to the beach i feel freee and happy. Ive seen a physocologist before but she was a really bad one. I want to see a physocologist that i like and that will understand me. sometimes wen i have nowhere to sit at lunch and recess at school i go to the toilet and try cutting myself, but i just cant do it coz it makes me feel sick. So thats me.... reply wen u get this :)

[indigo101]

Hi im 14 and i am very similar to you, I really want to see a physocologist or therapist but i dont want my parents to know, I dont even trust them. I used to be really outgoing wen i was younger and now i want to live on the streets and be a prostitute. I can barely sleep at night and feel like im not living life to the fullest like other 14 year olds. Im in yr 9 at school and i dont tlk much in class its been like this since yr 7. I feel like my mum is just using my dad for money and she always hangs out with other guys and i once caught her kissing. I love my dad but i think he just made the wrong choice with my mum. I think im depressed i recently bought a dog to help me when i take my dog or a walk to the beach i feel freee and happy. Ive seen a physocologist before but she was a really bad one. I want to see a physocologist that i like and that will understand me. sometimes wen i have nowhere to sit at lunch and recess at school i go to the toilet and try cutting myself, but i just cant do it coz it makes me feel sick. So thats me.... reply wen u get this :)

[Vballchick7]

Hi everyone, I feel similar to a lot of you guys out there.  I'm a 17 year old girl and don't feel that happy very often.  My home life's not the best, with an OCPD dad (he's super controlling and mean), and I have moved around a few times in my life. Most recently, I moved the summer before sophomore year.  It has been hard adjusting to a new high school and finding new friends.  I'm fairly shy and just feel like everyone already has their circle of friends that they've known since before high school.  I finally have a few "close friends" but nothing like where I used to live.  I feel lonely and pathetic a lot, but I do feel comparably better from the first year when I moved here.  I used to be SUPER sad and depressed and cry a lot, even thinking what it would be like to commit suicide. I'm not really sure how I "got over it."  Maybe I'm just dealing with "it" better now.  I have a few friends and have adjusted somewhat.  Also, I find it helps to do things you enjoy but also force yourself to hang out with people or do social activities, even if you don't want to because it will normally cheer you up, even if it's just calling a friend to chat with them.  I also remind myself of the future I will have when I go to college and get out of this house (away from my dad mainly) and hopefully meet new friends in college (I won't be the only person who doesn't know anyone).  I don't really know what to tell those of you who aren't in the same situation as me (moved to a new school or have a parent who's difficult to live with).  Just remember, THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU FOR BEING DEPRESSED! Your life does not necessarily have to suck for you to get depressed, though unfavorable conditions/circumstances certainly can't help and probably make it more likely for a person to become depressed.  Just keep your head up and like everyone says: if you can't get yourself to feel better after a while, tell a family member or friend or get some professional help.  There's nothing to be ashamed of (though I am somewhat of a hypocrite because I never told my mom there was anything wrong). Just remember: this is only temporary; things most likely CAN AND WILL GET BETTER! Take it one day at a time, and try with all your might, to focus on the positive things and what makes you happy. Good luck to all!

[Whogivesalaf]

You know, the thing is, we're all ****** up. And we're all ****** people who have nothing going for us. I dont want to read about your problems, and I'm sure you don't really give a **** **** about mine. If you think your depressed and going to see a therapist is going to make it better then you're fooling yourself. They don't do ****. I don't really know why I'm writing this, and I probably made you feel horrible. But that's kind of what I do. I'm a screw up. Have a nice life. I wish I had the courage to end mine right now.

[thinkingaboutstuff]

I'm 15 years old and i've been feeling depressed for almost 2 years. I live in a town that has 2500 people and 200 of them go to school. I've known almost everyone there my whole life. I have a small group of friends and each year depending on which class I get closer to them and farther from someone else until the next semester or year. A couple of my friends are attention hogs or someone who gets the guys I like no matter how many times I've said I liked someone and she decides to go and like them as well even if she has a boyfriend. Another is a very bad liar although she doesn't know that, her english gets stupider each year. others aren't as close to pinpoint a certain description. My sister ... is a sister, she is my twin (not identical) that has a bad temper and doesn't act like a sister. Most of the time she says she hates me (especially when I wont do something she wants to do). My brother are regular brothers that annoy their sisters. My mom and dad are nice and very strange, well you don't want to get my mom angry. my dad only gets angry over something big. I've lived in my town for my whole life, moved once only to the other side of town. I love to travel, but we never go any where. I am depressed and I don't know why. I cry almost every night and have an annoying sleeping habit of going to bed late and waking early for school. I have many books but I seem to get uninterested easily for the last two years. I've thought about suicide and actually tried to attempt it, but it didn't work, i've attempted it about 3 times, and obviously if I typing this It didn't work. I used to write songs with a friend but I don't think it's worth it if im a terrible singer but still sings anyway. I love to write but can never thinks of a plot or be able to make it long enough or be able to keep it short. I love art metal, woodwork, sewing, and art. I'm terrible at it but it's fun. I recently got a new camera for my birthday and I had decided earlier that year to become a photographer, only problem I don't know how to get money from being a freelance photographer, so I decided photojournalism, but I read somewhere that nobodies going to be hiring people with only a degree of photojournalism, they want them to be able to make videos instead of still pictures. I don't have anything left for jobs other than my backups that don't involve a camera which are: an art director (although most people from my no good fashion type school says I'm weird for wearing what I wear), makeupartist (I like makeup obviously but i havent understood how to keep my eyeshadow from coming off and going to the crease of my eye) and a hairdresser ( yes way off from camera's but I have fun playing with hair, another reason my sister isn't sisterly, she very boyish with her usual short curly hair but my mom is making her grow it out, she has no fashion sense but she decides to say I have no fashion sense, she is tall and doesn't do anything gurly, like do people hair (ex: my mom's and my hair, or a friends). No one meets my expectation that I always read in books. Obviously if everything had met my expectations I would had a boyfriend by now. I've never had a boyfriend and i've never had a first kiss. There was some dares for kisses on the cheek but those were pathetic. I guess i've been depressed because nothing has met my expectations, but life isn't like that. I've been wishing for a new life, and different life, to be someone else, nothing has worked, waiting on shooting stars, eyelashes, flower petals, and 11:11. i've been hoping the my depression will fade away but it only temporarily suspends it. I goes away when I'm not thinking baout it and then when I'm alone it comes back and haunts me, and I don't know what to do. Telling my parents is a nightmare to me, I mean they think i've at least had a secret boyfriend already and a first kiss. I don't tell them stuff like that so telling them i'm depressed seems like an embarrassment. All they would say is why?, you've always been so happy. they'll star asking if something had happen to cause this. I don't want to tell them because I don't what to tell them, I don't want question pouring out of them like water. I just want to tell someone, maybe get some medication to stop this feeling because I hate it. I don't want the feeling that i'm alone. I don't like the feeling that everyone hates me, that everyone is going to stop being my friend and become rude to me, I don't want to be alone.