What should I do? I think I'm depressed.

[liveforever]

         I'm a seventeen year old girl and I think I might be depressed. I don't do drugs or drink any alcohol, and I don't cut myself. I am a fairly popular kid in highschool. I used to think I was normal, but I just realised today that I haven't been acting like myself lately. My grades have dropped (I used to get 90's, now I barely get 70's) because I have trouble concentrating. I have been feeling angry and have had many mood swings that my friends and family have noticed. I cry myself to sleep for absolutely no reason. I often feel very sad. I'm not suicidal, however I have thought about it (just of what would happen, not of actually commiting it). I don't go out anymore, I barely call or text my friends, and I have been a little unsociable lately. I used to want to apply to a very competitive college but now I don't think I'm smart enough. The activities I used to enjoy I avoid now. I was at a concert a week ago, one that I have been dreaming to go to all my life, because they're British and never come to the US, and while in line, I seriously thought about just going home and sleeping. I also have noticed that my sleeping habits have changed, I can barely sleep. My eating habits haven't changed much; I used to be really thin, and I have gained ten pounds, but I think that is really normal, you can't even tell I gained weight. I've been feeling really sad, and thought that the whole world has been bleak and lifeless. I feel like the world is experiencing a great depression, however when I asked someone about if they remember being happier a year ago, they replied that they feel the same.

I do not want to admit to my family that I am feeling depressed, because I think they will feel like I want attention. That's the opposite of what I want. I have been trying to hide my feelings as much as possible but aparently it's not working because people have noticed I don't act like I did before.

However, that being said, I'm not sulking around 24/7, I do go to work, and have conversations with people. So what should I do? Should I try to see if it wears off? I don't really think it is that important or serious to see a doctor or go on medication. Is there a way to cure it by myself? I don't really want anyone to know that I am depressed unless I need to. Also therapy wont work; I'm just not that type of person.

[jia43]

I feel just like the way all you guys feel. i am not suicidal or anything. but i am only thirteen. i have my entire life ahead of me. i am depressed and don't understand why. I question my faith and sometimes i don't understand god. i cry about everything: letting people down, being fat, being ugly. i just want to be happy. is that to much to ask. iam afraid to tell my family because they might put me on medication and i hate medicine. if you have any advice for me contact me please. thanks

[maisy265]

Hey, i think im depressed im 12 year old girl my parents split up when i was 1 and ever since my mum met this new guy ive felt like crap then he moved us out to the countryside which i hate i never get on with him and it feels like i have no free time at all i get up go to school come home do jobs all night and im tired all the time im also a middle child i never have time for homework so i get stuck in detention im always sad and angry..

[maisy265]

Hey, i think im depressed im 12 year old girl my parents split up when i was 1 and ever since my mum met this new guy ive felt like crap then he moved us out to the countryside which i hate i never get on with him and it feels like i have no free time at all i get up go to school come home do jobs all night and im tired all the time im also a middle child i never have time for homework so i get stuck in detention im always sad and angry..

[Chase5113]

i have a weird depression, i get depressed when i see famous people on t.v. or in the news...i guess i just want to be famous...i know it sounds really dumb but it makes me get a funny felling inside

im kinda popular but alot of people hate me, im muscular(not at all depressed at my body) but it seems to me that i want to live in a world where i can have money to go on vacations with my family and also be noticed worldwide  

[Catt12]

Hi, I read your post.  I dont  know and tell me if you think I am right, but it seems to me that your living with a lot of pain.  Your childhood was totally ruined by a man who did something totally wrong and he definitely should be punished by law.  You were a little girl who had a horrendous experience.  One that should never have happened to you.  Little children need to be protected and nutured.  but you, you have lived through a violent and extremely deeply hurtful experience, emotionally, mentally and physcially.  No one should have to go through that.  That mans actions of rape has seemed to have put your life on a path that it was never meant to be on.  I can surely see why you would be cutting yourself and taking drugs, just to ease a bit of this pain.  Because you are not the person you are mean to be right now.  That man stopped you from being the person you were meant to be.  Would I be right in saying, you may still be the little girl who was raped.  Confused, wondering what was going on and why it was happening to you, and what was this happening to you.  its put you in a place where you just think its ok for people to do what ever they want to you.  that you may not have any power.  just feels powerless.  like there is nothing you can do.  i dont know if this is right, but cutting yourself so you feel something.  anything.  that man who raped you took away your feeling.  just numb now because thats how you get through each day, is that it?  I just wanted to connect with you on some level. I just wonder if any of what i have said sounds like what is going on for you.  I wish you all the best CAtt

[Catt12]

I read your comment.  I wondered how you are feeling now.  I hope you are feeling great and are happy with your life.  But if you are not, I would like to say the following.  I dont know if I am right, but to me it looks like you put a lot of pressure on yourself right now.  Its like you have a certain standard of yourself and that needs to be so perfect.  To me that sounds like a very hard task.  

Heaps of love CAtt