Over 6 months of blood in sputum, undiagnosed

[ammrrija]

Hi,

I would like some online help or at least consolation. I've been having blood colored sputum (usually bright red, pinkish, orange) for 6 months now, or at least that's when I noticed. It was mostly in the early morning (first spit), but now it seems I can reproduce it during the day just by sucking up all the saliva in my mouth or pulling it from the back of my throat. I was hoping it was either gums or 1 wisdom teeth that causes trouble (has grown out sort of horizontally) but the thing is I never see blood when brushing my teeth, unless I get a really hard toothbrush and brush with all my might. They I get them to bleed. But this blood in spit shows up before doing all that. I cannot conclude it if's from my  throat of my mouth. There are no sores in my mouth. My throat is not sore either. I don't have sinus infections. I don't have a cough. For the last 6 months I've had:

a chest Xray
had bronchoscopy
had my blood drawn 4 times
visited dentist 3 times
had MR of the sinuses
visited ENT doctors 9 times
had ENT doctors look at my nose and throat with an endoscope 4 times
had gastroscopy - this was the only time they found something, GERD and mild gastritis, altough I don't really feel the symptoms


Also, I've been having panic attacks and bouts of depression due to this. I am on medication and have even been hospitalized because this blood was driving me insane with fear from cancer and dying.

I don't understand what it is that makes me have bloody spit on almost daily basis for 6 months and no cause can be found.

I hope there's someone with something similar to help me make the bad thoughts go away, or guide me as to what to do next. I literally don't know which doctor I should visit, I've seen them all :(