Worst case of unexplainable brain fog ever!

[Ryan_brain_fog_Kelly]

So it all started from when i started smoking weed i was fine when i did it occasionally then this school year i started every single day i developed a case of brain fog i notice never felt sober just burnt out everyday, then later in my days like 5 months ago i began noticing brain fog from drinking too, i stopped and ive had it every single day since then, so i took a break from everything literally everything and i still had it but it did get a lot better, the list of problems it caused i can just go on and on, Horrible OCD, horrible insercurity, cannot pay attention to save my life, QUESTIONING WHO I AM; LIKE JUST BE SITTING DOWN AND BE LIKE IS THIS REALLY ME WHAT AM I DOING HERE JUST QUESTION MY EXISTENCE IN GENERAL, my head has a constant pressure on it i feel like its filled with smoke 24/7 like i feel like a balloon head like my head is balloted a constant pressure on it, i have racing thoughts 24/7 my mind never rests, like i can just go on and on. No one understand how bad  this is, then i took another break from it almost felt normal again but just didn't seem to go away felt better then ever, then picked up this weird substance in my bathroom in a water bottle it was black and looked harmless so i smelt it as soon as i did my head just filled with fog i could feel the whole process all my hard work gone out the window wasent even my fault i had no idea it would harm it, sitting in a car with my friends while the were smoking a cigar brain filled with fog. So pretty much anything i do i get brain fog, if i take an advil or an allergy medicine i get brain fog from that i cant even take medicine to fix this. Ive tried gluten free ive tried meditation, ive tried all that stuff nothing works
I am 17 years old in highschool i cant even live a normal life, this is absolutley terrible i do not feel like myself i dont know how much longer i can live like this... i

[RockRose]

By the way,  questioning what am I doing here,  what is my purpose,  why do I exist is something 17 year olds are supposed to be doing.  That's kind of what you do when you're 17 - and especially your first semester of college when you're 18.  Your mind expands to the big questions of what is the purpose of life.

[RockRose]

When you say you took a complete break,  and felt better,  then you took another break and felt better,  do you keep going back to drinking and smoking in between the times when you start to feel better because you've quit temporarily?

I don't know what that thing was in your bathroom,  but honestly,  I don't think it has anything to do with your brain fog.

You sound like you suffer from anxiety issues,  and smoking weed and drinking isn't helping.

Over the summer can you quit doing all that?  Maybe get into a routine where you exercise - hike or swim maybe - and maybe go somewhere and stay with other family to give yourself a break from your pattern and your friends?

[Ryan_brain_fog_Kelly]

It was dark black smelled a lot like oil

[Normanred]

What did the substance in your bathroom look like?