depression?? Self Harming again why am i doing this? please please help me

[bellydancer232]

I know this isnt a physical problem but im to scared to go to my doctor or talk to anyone. Ive been self harming for two years only 4 or 5 times a year when i really cant handle the stress/depression. I did it again last night then stood up looked in the mirror and wondered why id done it..then today at work i was trying to stop myself crying over nothing then all over a sudden i didnt feel the need to cry anymore. Its almost like its coming over me in waves but when its there its unbearable and i feel worthless. Could it be to do with my horomones, pill or just majourly bad PMS?? Im 18 :(

[OneWordSaysAll]

There is this project witch I found so special. It's called the butterfly project. It's simple.
Every time you want to self harm, draw a butterfly instead, and name it after someone you love.
Everytime you harm yourself again, all butterflies die.
Still you need to find a psychologist or some other specialized help but it's a start, preventing it'd happen again.
I still selfharm after hearing of this project, because my parents don't let me draw on my body. Afraid that I'd want a tattoo later on in life.
Xxx -15-year-old from holland-

[DreamNaut]

You definitely need to see a doctor and figure out what is causing your depression/stress. Its not something to be ashamed of. You need to get to the bottom of it before it gets worse.

[slightlynerdy]

Crystaldhall4 is right...The best thing would be for you to see a therapist.  I know that it's scary to admit to what you're doing to other people (I used to self-harm, too) but it's the only way that you can get help.  

Although it's difficult, I would also suggest telling your parents if you think they'd be able to get you help.  You deserve help!  No one deserves to feel like they have to hurt themselves.  

[crystaldhall4]

Honey,

The best treatment for you would be to seek psychological help. I am not trying to sound judging but I have a family member that does the same thing. A primary care doctor can't give you the treatment you need and therefore should seek mental therapy from a psychologist, counselor, or therapist.

You need someone you can talk to that will help you get to the root of the problem, not just fill you with a ton of medication and send you on your way.