This is embarassing.
Everytime I go to defecate, I don't seem to finish the job. I wipe and sometimes then I can go some more. Other times, I'll stand up, flush, and then have to sit right back down. Other times, I leave the bathroom and then have to go back in two or three minutes. This can happen up to 10 times an hour. I might go to the bathroom up to twenty times a day. not diarhhea. Even if the stools are liquid-y, I have to strain just to get them out. Oftentimes I have to strain to pass gas, too. Also, I have the most unbearable rectal pressure/pain. This pain/pressure sometimes happens AFTER I've gone, maybe because there's more to come, but it is only relieved by laying down. If I stand, I cannot bear it. Sitting relieves it somewhat, but laying down flat on my back for about fifteen minutes is about the only way to stand it.
When I do defecate, it feels as if the stool is moving backwards--like going down before going back up and out my anus.
Does this sound like anything to anyone? I feel as if I'm going crazy. I am fortunate in that my job requires a lot of walking but also I can sit when I want to do so---for me to stand still for more than three or four minutes when this is going on makes it unbearable. I don't know if I could work with this in any job that required any amount of standing.
It inhibits my cooking for my family--I take sitting breaks sometimes--and the whole thing is starting to interfere in living my life. The maddening thing besides the pain--which is bad enough--is that I don't know what's wrong.