About a month ago, I was tentatively diagnosed with insulin resistance and PCOS, shortly after the loss of my pregnancy (blighted ovum). By tentatively, I mean I didn't do the bloodwork, but my OB/GYN said she was a sufferer of PCOS herself and she recognized my struggles, as well as the clusters of cysts on both of my ovaries.
As you can imagine, this is difficult for someone who's just turned 18 less than two months ago. I hate my body and I feel like I was cursed to be fat and unhealthy for the rest of my life. I hate seeing thin people look at me like I've just eaten an entire box of donuts. I'm 5'4" and approximately 180 pounds, and all my weight is between my chest and thighs. I desperately want to exercise, but due to my mostly sedimentary lifestyle in the past 10 years, I can barely walk across the street to the park without getting completely winded and having to sit down for a while just to breathe again. My blood pressure in a "sitting" position is normally 145/100.
When it comes to my diet, I love meats (chicken, lean hamburger, etc.) and unprocessed cheese. I'm a big protein person. However, my family and I, as is most of the country, are going through a tough financial situation and we're living on whatever we can afford, which all happen to be things I shouldn't eat - macaroni and cheese, hamburger helper, mashed potatoes, and rice.
How can I avoid the "bad" carbs when they're all I have, and how can I get active with my blood pressure the way it is? Can I reverse my PCOS by losing weight and be able to have children someday?