ok, i dont want to think i mad or anything but ide like to know before i realy do.basicly ever since my gran died(the closest and loveble person of my life) ive trodding along problems, a lot of problems with parents, friends and at school.ive lost a lot of people in my life and i thibnk in a way it was kind of my fault, and i keep beating my self up for it(no self hrming or commiting suicide) although i did feel like i wanted to.and a couple of months a go i have started to realise that i a strange feeling inside me keeps hitting me, i know this sounds wierd but, basically i see things from corners of my eyes and shadows or darkness, this has styarted to make me feelk scaired about things, things that i dont even know of. i also have very unusual dreams that arnt vey pleasent. i keep feelinmg i need my gran back.i tyend to loose concentration and intrest in things, even people in school have told me that i hacve bee acting very quite and at that back, wehich isnt realy like me since i used to very bubbly and up for anything.i feel very scairdof the tyniest things and have alot of problems at home which make me cry a lot, my parents try their hardest bless them but i just seem to get the wrong side of things i guess. i get very very uncontolabley scaird when im alone or when i try falling asleep.i dont know whats happening i feel upset over the tyniest things.am i some kind of freak or am i just a normal teenager going through a stage. please help!