Four months ago I had unprotected oral I had arranged a massage through Craiglist while drunk, showed up at "her friend's apartment" and I pretty quickly fell asleep on the table. I awoke to her laughing, saying she tried to get me off with a BJ but I was too drunk.
Freaked out completely, since I'm married and have a great wife I love deeply and I haven't ever done something like this, I felt horrible and paranoid. I took some Kerflex I had, full dose for 3 weeks. Stayed off sex for a month and no symptoms during.
A month ago my wife had microscopic blood in her urine. My high anxiety from my fears and guilt made me worry myself sick, flare up my recurrent herpes, imagined tingling in my penis. One time, just once, after peeing I thought I noticed a tiny bit of some residual clear sticky fluid. But not after that. Never, any painful urination. After many tests, my wife was deemed fine. I felt better.
Anxiety always there for me, last week, my herpes came back hard and the tingling feeling has stayed for a week, with breakout now gone. Also had chills and malaise. For some reason I had started thinking about it all again.
Three days ago, we think I passed a gallstone and the day was VERY traumatic, and it wrecked havoc on my body I had urine and blood tests. Everything "normal"..The day after I had a prostate exam. Result: enlarged prostrate (I'm 52). Since that exam (aggressive, ouch) I feel very sensitive in prostate, groin and abdominal area. The urgency to pee was crazy at first but getting better.
Now. I have these sensitive feelings, no pee pain, but extra need to urinate. Logically, it's the stress, prostrate invasion, gallstone, knowledge of enlarged prostate and my 4 month old fears.
But fears remain in my head, constantly. Can you alleviate them?