I have two questions that might be related or overlapping..
1) I'm 21 and since year 1 in primary school, I've been struggling to stay focused.. My teachers have always went mad because "I don't focus"..
It has always been hard for me to finish my homework, or my studying without my mothers help; she has always set the plans and helped me arrange my time.. She has usually sat next to me and read my studies with me.. Otherwise, I'd get totally dissociated, not to mention the total lack of motivation to do anything..
I think I'm also smart enough to succeed because my grades have always been good and I was among the top students in my class..
But when I finished high school, things got harder.. I joined the med-school, and now I'm in my 5th year.. I spend every year doing nothing, I have got no will at all to study, my daily routine is a mess, I always fail to follow a plan, I'm always bored, I don't listen in classes, sometimes I don't even attend because I know it's boring and that I won't be able to focus..
And the few weeks before final exams are like hell to me, I get so stressed and I never finish studying and end up succeeding by luck! My average score is B ( I must be too smart to achieve this!).. Even in vacations, time just slip away without using it properly! I often forget what I'm planning to do!
So is this ADD?? And if so, would taking stimulants improve my case??
2) My second problem is that I get intrusive distressing obsessions so often, I can never block them and they really stress me out.. Some of them are inappropriate or so absurd, others are religious concerns, I know they are silly and they never stop! Sometimes inappropriate images pop up, even in my dreams! I wake up filled with disgust and guilt as well! Sometimes I panic!
I don't remember when that started, but probably 2-3 years ago..
When we studied OCD this year, It was as if the doctor explaining my problem literally! However, I was never obsessed with tidiness and my room is a mess! I'm only obsessed with cleanliness if it's preceding prayers.. Sometimes I wash a lot before praying even if I'm sure I' clean!
I started taking Citalopram a month ago, 10 mg/day, I still obsess, but less often and they're not as persistant as before... So is this OCD? Should I increase the dose?? Shall I stay on medication forever? I read that ADD medications can cause OCD symptoms, what should I do??
Please help me, and sorry for the long entry! But REALLY need help!
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