I've recently started taking focalin because I've been kind of depressed and when I take it, it makes me feel kind of like I'm "on top" but the after math *****, then when I think I can stop I can't and I've tried showing myself the symptoms and what it can do to me to scare myself and for some reason that doesn't work. I've done almost everything from listening to speeches to reading articles and even freaking myself out but nothing ever works and for some reason at times I get this sudden urge like I HAVE to have some.