Freaking out with stress/anxiety

[overopiates]

Im trying NOT to freak out but my anxiety is through the rough.Im gonna start looking for a job this week for the 1st time since I was pregnant over4yrs ago.My son is starting preschool/headstart next week he is 3&1/2 only child and Ive never been away from him.The combo is freaking me out big time.I am so sad even though its the best thing for him and I know that but doesnt make it any easier.Im so nervous about interviewing cause its been so long just the thought of it sends me into an anxiety flooded tail spin.Also Im scared of the pain I will inevitably have working on my feet8-10hrs a day w/no meds.Ive been clean over450days now so Im not craving etc just scared to death.I wont let the fear stop me but I know no one would understand all this like my medhelp family.Im trying to look on the bright side.I moved to a very small town over2yrs ago and Im w/my son always and havent met anyone here that wasnt a drug addict(met and started2become friends w/4different girls amd they all ended up being druggies I realize n this small town there r as many pill heads and also meth addicts which I never saw n Orlando but as many junkies n every town lol)so I will get to be back around people and make new friends which is important.Im just a wreck right now!!!

[overopiates]

Thank u Laurel.It seems that over the last few months anytime Ive had any issue u have been here with kind words and encouragement

[laurel453]

Sabrina, you are a fighter and a strong woman... you will be ok, be yourself at the interviews. Hey, all the best and good luck !!!!

[overopiates]

Aa far as protecting my surroundings yes its a constant thing.I wonder if I was projecting the vibe to meet 4seperate people and I realized ALL of them did pills(lortab or worse,xanax etc).I did cut off communication asap but its like wtf then again maybe its the fact that so many people take these stupid pills.

[overopiates]

Thanx for the support.OH YEAH I HAVE SEPERATION ANXIETY FOR SURE.I went to the orientation for the parents last week got literature amd they talked about it but more for the kids.I asked where my info is lol.She totally understoof though she said it was refreshim to c a parent not just thrilled to get away from there kid and asked if I could volunteer sometimes which of course I said yes to.
As for work I know how u feel.I have a college degree myself and lots of experience n management but feel like it doesnt matter cause I havent worked in so long.I have some great leads and waiting til monday of next week when he starts so I can spend time with him to looking.Just so nervous.I have to work so I dnt sit around missing my lil guy too much.U will be n my prayers to find a great job u deserve.

[drifter0213]

it is good to protect your surroundings, you might have separation anxiety too