Getting on the road to recovery

[avonkitty]

Well I have posted on here befor about my horrid cycles I go through in relation to HEAVY drinking, xanax, ambien and sex . I am recently coming out of one of these cycles and have not had sex in a month, a drink in 5 days and trying to taper off the abuse of the pills. I have been doing pilates for the past 2 days and feel that has really helped me.
I have been having problems sleeping mostly waking up and my stomich hurts alot but mentally I feel good.
Every night when I am driving home I want to get a bottle of wine and think I can have just one glass but I know that is not the case, I WILL drink the whole bottle. It is a struggle and it really is mind over matter, You can start to feel better with one day....But I have done this befor and always fall off the wagon. I am young and attractive so I get big headed go out find men that are as selfless as me and let them use me as I use them. I am so afraid of going there again. Please any tips to help me stay on the road and respect myself

[czeck]

I have been on and off the wagon for nearly fourty years and i know what it's like.i have been to two rehabs and most latley i have gotton off of xanax soma vicodid ambien flexarill and fetynol.all  these were prescribed by a doctor but the fetynol.i missed work and was in hell for weeks but i did stay off now for two months.this behavior is a cycle but it can be broken with help from proffesionals.so don't give up and get help!

[allaboutmary]

Sounds like therapy, N/A would help alot. You need to get to the root of why you are doing these self-detructive things.  There is an acohol forum here. They would probably be able to help more. Best wishes.....