Very Sad Story

[Smiles Are Fake]

I am a 23 year old female with an addiction to Opiates..Percocet and Vicodin. I have a suffnificant other who is addicted to oxycontin, percocet and adderol. For the last 10 days I pretty much was watching my girlfriend die in our hotel room bed that we were staying at...watching her throwing up every 2 minutes/24hrs a day, in and out of the bathtub, complaining, crying, bringing her to every single ER around to get her help...no one helped us, I was screaming at the staff to admit her because something was seriously wrong, nothing. I was watching her puking the death out of herself thinking she was detoxing, but later found out she had too much meds in her system. She is also an alcholic. Now Im at home with my parents and shes at home with her parents because while she was going through all that, I was detoxing or looking for pills so I could be "up beat" enough to take care of her. I was playing mom and now I have to take care of myself. Its so hard being away from her not knowing if shes okay or not, she is in a rehab now, as for me, im doing it at home with the following medications: clonidine, klonopin & promethazine (nausea) then I will be attending meetings and counseling. I didnt feel like I didnt inpatient.

Now my questions are, how am I going to detox myself...worrying about her. My anxiety is bad enough without detoxing, its bad when I detox and when Im done, My nerves are going to be shot because shes gone for 2 months. I know I need to care about myself and do whats right for me. But its so hard at the same time.

My last pills were 2 vicodin 10mg last night at 6pm, I am 12 hours clean. I went from taking almost 15-20 pills a day down to 4 a day, Wanted to know what my withdrawals would be like? if any at this point.  My stomach is the only thing really bothering me, but it was bothering me on pills too...Just need to know if this is going to be horrid. I have been using for 2 years now, was clean for 11 months before that...I just want to get through this with strength, I have torn myself apart, my family apart and my friends. I want them back in my life and I want them to know I can do this.

If anyone has any information for me, or ideas that would be great. I love the feed back. This forum is what kept me going last time. You all are great. Thank you so much.


--Smiles Are Fake

[Lady_Baglady]

This really is a good start. But once you are completely off any type of medicine, everything is going to get extremely hard. It did for me anyways. Be prepared for an almost full body ache, headache, slight vertigo, sweating, etc. I even got some slight muscle weakness. The severity of your symptoms might depend on how long you did opiates. My brothers symptoms were not that bad (based on what he told me) and his only lasted for 4 or so days. Mine were horrid and lasted for about 10 days.
Please try not to worry about your girlfriend. I'm a worrier too though, so I know that's almost impossible. Just keep reminding yourself that she is in a good place, a rehab has more things to offer right now to help her than anyone. It's probably the best place for her.
Have you considered NA to help with STAYING clean? Because in all honesty I think staying clean is even harder than going through all those nasty withdrawls. I relapsed quite a few times. This is the longest I've been clean, and I'm completely grateful to NA for that.
Trust me, I tried doing this on my own (the first time), and it's so much harder. Try to find a friend to talk to, or even talk to your mom about it. The second time I got clean I broke down and talked to my grandmother about it, luckily she is extremely open minded and accepting and understanding. The last time I got clean, sadly, required rehab.
And allaboutmary had good advice with taking walks. I did that too, I still do that sometimes.
Keep on posting here, because we all understand what you're going through, and we all want to help you. And if you want to talk to anyone one on one, I'm sure any of us in this addiction forum wouldn't mind if you messaged us.
I hope you and your girl get better.

[thang2]

Sorry everyone  I guess maybe I'm still a bit foggy headed  and I need to spell check  lol

[thang2]

You can do it!! When you are clean and sober you will realize allot of things you haven't noticed in years. You will be a different person but I would almost guarantee you you will like the new you!! I'm 30 yr old female who has done to DT'd one was typical all the symptoms the other which was Tuesday was not that bad. We all go through them different and I do believe allot of it is meantal.....not all there are the flu like symptoms yes  but some of it is like how you feel when you know you can score. Example  Your feeling like **** because you cant get any and your body starts to WD a bit   then you get a call and when you get them in your hands immediately you start to feel better or as soon as you put them in your mouth........  weird right!!!    Most of us want to get after so long of using but we don't out of fear      be the one who does get clean and beat the odds!!
If you wanna chat    I'm here  

[allaboutmary]

Also, I found even a short walk helps with the anxiety.

[cathy5841]

welcome back smiles are fake.  you are on the right track, stick with it.  you cant help you g/f til you have helped yourself.  she is in rehab now so concentrate on you.  get back to meetings now, you will get the tools to stay clean...keep on posting when it gets hard.

[allaboutmary]

I'm not going to lie to you this is going to be a long hard road. The withdrawals will probably last 5-10 days. The Clonodine will help, but keep an eye on your blood pressure.  You probably won't have much energy for a few months and have some depression. All that being said.......It will be so worth it in the long run. Your young and can have a long, great, clean future. The hardest part comes after the withdrawals......staying clean.  You can do this though !   Your girlfriend should do fine in in-patient care. Stay strong girl !   Make sure you drink plenty of fluids. Many people get bladder infections during detox.  Keep posting, it helps a lot.

[scaredmom330]

you have taken the first step. you need to worry about yourself now, your girlfriend will be ok in rehab. w/d are different for each person, you might not get them too bad but if you do they shouldnt last that long, about a week and then remember they will get better every day. stay strong. post and keep posting. there will be other on later that can help you more. take care

Karen