Tears

[narla]

I'm sick of crying for no reason,or is there a reason,counselling is getting harder why put myself through it,I know if I don't get my life sorted I would drink and do codeine again,I have to keep going with the counselling no matter how hard it gets or how much I hurt.The pain is sometimes unbearable mental anguish I call it.I know I have to get through this but it could take years-It's only been 5 months and we haven't really scratched the surface of my inner most thoughts and feelings that run my life.I knew it would be hard but how much can my brain take.I'm feeling bombarded with everything all at once.

How do I keep going-Denise

[dominosarah]

Are you feeling better today?

[narla]

Thanks for your replies,counselling is like addiction,one day at a time,I know I will see this through it's just tough at the moment and I am sick of the tears.But writing here and in my journal helps to put it into perspective again.Thank you both  Denise

[NorcoQueenoftheUniverse]

Hey Narla Sweet Pea... I STILL cry all the time... (and I've got 200 plus days clean)
Life can be so difficult sometimes.... MOST times... but we just need to realize that it's that much more difficult when we are using....I could pop a pill right now and everything would go away... MOMENTARILY!  I choose to not 'pop that pill'  I have too much to live for... and SO DO YOU!  Hang in there sweetie pie...."When in doubt... get it out"  Keep going to therapy... keep posting.... and above all... keep in touch..

Lots of Love and Support your way!
NorcoQueen

[dominosarah]

Last Saturday was emotionally devastating for me and i spent all day and night in tears....I talked with one of my friends on the phone and she was talking with me and she said to me i am so proud of you, you are finally feeling things....I thought to myself gee easy for you to say but after we talked for awhile she was dead on.  I WAS finally feeling things, i wasnt numbing them up.  Crying is very healing and its okay to cry.  When these emotions come to the surface it does feel overwhelming but just let yourself feel them.  Stay in your recovery Denise, you are doing great.  You will get thru all of this.  I actually thought about you later that night and smiled......The tough love that i got from her that day was something else.  She doesnt mince words and told me exactly what i needed to hear!!!  I told ya i got spanked once in awhile!!!!!!!!!!!!  LOL      Chin up girl!!             sara