What's everyones reasons to want to stay clean

[ang_811]

I'm 23 days clen today... I've come to the realization that it takes alot of hard work to keep clean...everyone is right when they say getting clean is the easy part, staying clean is the hard part... I've been thinking of ways to hate the pills that brought me here, u would think I'd hate them with a passion but I'm not there yet but I'm trying... I'm making a list of reasons on y I want to be clean... I was just wondering what everyone eles reasons would be....

[ang_811]

Thoser all really good reasons!!!! I so wanted my life back. I wanted to do the things I used to do b4 my addiction. Guess what I'm doing that plus more. I've gotton back nto swimming and running again. I live swimming when I'm n the water nothing else matters my problems go away and I forget about being an addict and I forget about the struggles I face. I feel like I can take on the world. I feel free. Who knows I might be n the next olympics... Michael phelps watch out!!!!! Lol.

[PromisedLand]

I haven't read everyone's replies, sorry...but..I want to live my life naturally, not dependant on chemicals...I want to DEAL WITH THE ISSUES that brought me to addiction in the first place, and I want to be a better husband and father..I've let my wife down too many times and I'm on very thin ice as it is..I've got less than a week to be free of tramadol and I'm going to do it, (I'm starting at 2/day today) and that will be the end of that.  Cancel any refills I have open (3 I think) and live with the consequences.

I want to be free of these things, and live whatever the Lord has left for me free of that crap and clear of mind.


Jim

[Mikeinthesouth]

My daughters and family and of course for Mike.

[Beccabeccalynn]

I got tired of last week seeming like one long day and not knowing what the date was or even what day of the week, sometimes not caring. Thinking I had a life and running around getting nothing done. Thanks but no thanks
becca

[nomo357]

Thanks! I really appreciate that! Yes, I can't do that to my kids, its a huge motivator, I want it for myself of course sooo much too, but this isn't just my life if I screw it up. My cousins were all raised by parents who were addicts or drunks, I wasn't. I was raised by two wonderful parents who did everything they could to give me the best chance at life, well I blew it! LOL I hope and pray with all my heart that my kids don't ever do this. I won't hide it from them, I will lay it all out someday in the hopes that it might make them understand but I don't want it to effect their upbringing, it's just not fair. My parents did it for me, and I am obligated to do the same.

You can do this!!! Babies are the most precious gift in the whole world, trust me when you have your first baby it will be a bigger high than any pill could ever give you. There is nothing on earth like watching your kids grow and learn! My best piece of advice would be write everything down, read it everyday, read it twice a day! Don't ever let yourself slip back into this mess because it seems like I always forgot how bad off I was until I was in it again! This time I've had it, its do or die trying!

[ijustwannabeclean]

that is awesome! u definitely don't want them to remember u that way. my wife went through that stuff with her mom when she was in middle school. she still resentr her for it and she is 27 now. her mom denies every bit of it too. i'm 31 and soooo tired of being this way. i've had 2 bulging disks for many years now and its painful. i think i need to exercise and get healthy and that will make the biggest difference for me. i'm like you cause i just want to live a normal life without thinking i have to have those for every thing that i do. o know i can quit but trying to stay clean is the hardest part for me. having everything trigger my cravings is going to be the hardest part. i hope all goes great for u. we all can do it!

[ijustwannabeclean]

i have a great wife and good job and we make pretty good money. we want to start a family soon but i relapsed again. i have battled this **** for 12 years off and on. i've had my good times and my bad. i am done this time. i was taking 10-15 lortab 10/500 a day. today is day 1. i am going to take 20mg of methadone a day for the next 4-5 days. that should help me get through the toughest part of the process. i don't have enough of those to get hooked. i know all about methadone cause i was in a clinic for 2 years. i never want to go through that again.

[nomo357]

My baby boys, my boyfriend, my family. I wanted my life back so bad! I am on day 5, and I am getting it back a little more everyday. It's amazing how clear everything became around you, I'm noticing so many things I never noticed before. I was ruining my life, and I wanted to live a full, happy life, that's not possible on drugs. I want to brush my horses at my parents again, I want to go pick wildflowers again, I want to be the person who is all smiles again. I want to be the mom I am meant to be, which is probably the biggest influence in all of this. I couldn't live with myself anymore knowing that I was doing this to my kids. I was being a bad mom! Sure, I fed them, I clothed them, I did the basics but I wasn't giving extra hugs and love, I wasn't really playing on the floor with them, thats what hurt me the most. I always said for the past 2 1/2 years, I would get it together before my boys were old enough to remember their mama this way. Well, my oldest is 3 he's going to start keeping his memories very soon this is IT, this is my very last chance! I have to get it together or my kids are going to carry a drug addicted mom throughout their life in memory even if I did  get clean later. I just couldn't handle the thought of that, so no matter what I can't do anymore drugs...everyday I've been getting up, reading the serenity prayer, reminding myself of everything I just said, and praying to god for the strength to get through today. I know he will get me through it! I have faith!

[dominosarah]

I just simply wanted to live and experience life clean~~~~~

[ang_811]

Those r sum really good reasons.... Mine r...
I like the person I am when I'm clean.
I'm free to do what I want without worrying about having enough pills.
My fiancé. He's never done drug/drink so he doesn't deserve a fiancé who is an addict.
So I can help others n their addiction.
I have emotions when I'm clean. I'm aware of what's going on around me.
I'm more social and actually want to do stuff with people.

[scoenen]

Good question ang

My daughters, my husband, I want my life back, no more waking up and having to take something to get my day started, no having to count pills to make sure I have enough for the day, no more scheduling my day around when i take my pills, wanting to smile and it be from me and not what I am on, want to have a more carefree life, wanting to be the mom I am supposed to be, and the list goes on.