lonely

[GodsSon4ever]

Iam the kind of person that forgive but doesnt forget and thats hurt me alot with all the people i comunicate with parents familly friends gf etc.    I can stand on my will for others and then they think of me like a weak person and thats what makes my blood boil. Lately i started to get away from all my friends or they left me i donno but now iam felling so lonely that i cant talk to anyone u know like a secret keeper i find no one as much as i try to get closer iam going the opposite way   i donno i need help to be a bit relaxed or so with my friends   beacause iam not the person who attract people caz i dont talk much and thats the problem of my life wish anyone have the answer

[Tryin2BClean]

I'm sorry to hear that ur lonely.  I wish i cld help, butvall I can tell u that wen i read ur post, it was like I had written it myself.  Its so depressing.  Since my mama died, her family turned on me, then I find out my brothers are doodoo talking about me with those witches.  My husband follows me wen I leave the house, which might b twice a month, cause I must b cheating or buying drugs (nvr bought drugs in my life) and he videotapes me in the bathroom to c wat I'm doing.  I had one person left, z friend I called sister who I trusted 100%.  Then something I told only Ger comes back to me.  Now I'm alone, dealibgvwith depression, post traumatic stress, anxiety disorder, chronic pain, diabetes, hypertension and opiate addiction. That's y I'm here in fact.  We can't trust anyone in life but on here we can let our secrets out without anyone knowing who we are.  Idk if uve ever really participated in an online community but u wld b surprised how helpful it can b.  If u want a sympathetic "ear" or to commiserate, I will b happy to b ur secret keeper.  I really do understand.  My one wish in life is to b free of pain pills, bug how can i when I'm all alone.  If my husband had a smidge of empathy for me wen I'm sick I'd b OK.  Bug that's wen he decides to yell at of lecture me.  He kicks me when I'm down.  I meant wat I said. If u need to vent (btw sorry I turned this into a vent)  I'm more than happy to b a sounding board for u.

[overopiates]

Also try speaking up for urself when something is bothering u before it manifests over time into as u saod making ur blood boil.thats not healthy for u,ur friendships or ur mental health.

[overopiates]

Im sry to me the post was a bit confusing.Sounds like ur aroumd the wrong types of people.U should explore ur hobbies?interests&find people who have similar interests&a similar kind temperment.Do people treat u a certain way that makes u feel like this or r u assuming they think this?