Fentanyl withdrawal

[BEEN72]

Hello everyone.  I have been reading a lot of emails on here and I thought I would post a question.  I am currently weaning off of a 25mg fentalyn patch that I took every two days.  I have been on the patch for two years.  I also take Vicodin 10mg for breakthrough.  I have been praying to god to help me have the courage to get off the medications.  I feel like it has taken over my life.  I recently took a urine test for the doctor and she said that a drug came up that I have never even heard of.  I think it starts with an O.  But, when she checked the pharmacies to see if I got a prescription for it it never showed up. BECAUSE I NEVER TOOK IT!  But, she did notice that I accepted a prescription of Darveset that I received.  Yes, I was wrong for accepting it.  I was passing a kidney stone and the pain was too much to handle.  It ended up being a 6 mm stone.  I had used up all my Vicodin and I did not go see her for two days.  She is very hard to talk with and has no compassion for her patients.  I am sure she has been burned a lot.  So I can’t say I don’t blame her.  I should have called her and asked for more but I was afraid.   I was still on my patch but it was not helping.  I could have gone to the ER but my husband was out of town and I have children.  Plus I can’t stand the IV drugs at in the hospital because it makes me throw up.  SO, anyway since I accepted it she and I had some words.  I really don’t blame her.  She is a good doc and she is only looking out for my best interest.  She said she wanted me to find a new doctor because I broke the contract.  She said she would give me one more month of prescriptions but then I was on my own.  When I walked out (my kids were with me) I looked at the prescriptions and then my children and realized that I could take these prescriptions and find a new doctor or I could follow God’s lead and wean myself off of them.  I truly believe God wanted her to find some drug I never took so she would check my prescriptions.  It has to be.  So, I turned around and gave her back the Fentalyn patch prescription and the Focalin prescription. (I used to get 10 every other month for the really bad pain.  I have a kidney disease that cause me to pass stones every week.)  The nurse looked shocked but I felt liberated.  I thought I was addicted to the meds mentally but I realized that yes my body is addicted to it but my mind is not.  Because anyone that is addicted to it mentally would have taken the prescriptions and run.  My mother has been addicted to pain meds for 20 years.  It caused our family a lot of grief.  I did not want that for my children and that is why I have been praying to God to give me the courage to stop the meds and try other natural pain help remedies like acupuncture and meditation.     I felt liberated when I handed her back the prescription.  That was my first step to being drug free.  I was proud of myself. I got in the car and started crying and laughing at the same time.  But I knew it was going to be a long road to get me off .   I did fill the Vicodin prescription and I handed it over to my husband.  He is giving me 6 a day to wean me down.  I am on day 4. I start with 4 a day for 4 days tomorrow, and so on until I am off.   I do have the muscle aches, and the sleepless nights.  Probably four hours a night.  But the worst is the Restless legs.  I can’t stand lying awake and all I feel are my legs aching.      My question to all of you is will this work?  Has anyone did this before?  I don’t have the cravings for the drug.  My husband gives me my dose at the right times that we layed out.   He is supporting me all the way.  I am taking motrin for the kidney pain and drinking lots of water and lying on a heating pad to help.   I know that I will have to take drugs again especially if I get blocked with big stones but I will try everything else before I go to them.  I wish I never went to a Pain doctor.  I had no idea what this stuff can do to your body.  I wish I knew before I signed up.  I always thought my Mom was addicted to the high.  But I think she did not have the courage to go through WD.   WD are the worst.  I know that I am doing it slow and It prolongs being uncomfortable but I don’t want my kids to see me sick for five or six days.  Does anyone have any suggestions?  Am I doing this right?    Sorry so long.  But if you have ever weaned yourself off can you let me know if I am doing it right.  

Thank You
Someone who feels liberated.  

[scaredmom330]

RLS is the worse. try hot baths. somehow the heat calms the nerves. there are medications you can take for RLS that are not narcotics. also there are vitamins you can take. Sorry  I don't know which ones but someone will be on later that knows more. I wish you the best, remember one day at a time. You might try the Thomas recipe, I have only heard good things about it. take care. Congrats on being strong,


Karen

[TrayCee]

youve posted your question in the "Social Community"  you'll get much more replies if you'll repost this on the "Substance Abuse Addiction Community" side