I'm sorry to hear about your struggle. Addiction takes its toll! Not only on us but those who love us. Give your wife time. She probably has some hurt to heal as well. 4 days is AWESOME and you CAN totally do it. MIND OVER MATTER! Hang in and hang on. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!
Yes I'm ready its been 4 days clean now. I have lost my wife in all this **** can belive I chose pills over my besfriend the mother of our unborn child my soul mate and she is gone now but I know I have to do this for my self and I know I can and will change.
AND It takes a lot of hard work to stay clean.This Journey into our Recovery was not meant to be walked alone.
Bless
Stop taking the medicine. Tell your doctor/source that you have quit. Change your habits. Tackle your underlining issues. Lean on support. Understand that you are not alone. Start that hobby you been thinking of. Read a good book about addition. You can only quit when YOU are ready to quit. Are you ready?