32 days clean...and my dealer has been texting me weekly

[SoDoneNow]

The good news: I'm on my 32nd day and truly believe I'm over this addiction. I know "once an addict, always an addict" but I'm really conscious that Percocet is THE thing that will destroy me. So I'm just saying no. For real. For good. And I cry almost daily that I was able to get past that horrible stage to get to this good place I'm in now. I don't ever want to be in pill hell again.

The bad news: My dealer needs my money. He's texted me 3 times--once a week--to see if I need anything. I blocked his number and he called from another one. I said I quit and he's just "making sure I'm good." He's a friend of a good friend so I don't want to be really mean but what if he catches me in a weak spot? And I say yes? It could happen. I know that. As confident as I feel now, temptation can be stong and the brain likes those pills.

Anyone else feeling done? But a little nervous?

[SoDoneNow]

LOL. I love the advice.

[SoDoneNow]

I know. It sounds silly. He deserves the worst of me. And yes, I know I'm still an addict. I just feel like I'm one that is very aware of it now and doesn't want to be. It's a new feeling for me. So I'm hopeful.

[SoDoneNow]

I agree. I love life again and don't ever want to lose it again. I wasted so many years. My only regret is pills.

[SoDoneNow]

Exactly! Thank you.

[SoDoneNow]

Wow! That is crazy. These people are the enemy. We need to treat them like that. SCREW them--no more niceties!

[steve1220]

tell your Dealer to take a FLYING F$%K (i was one all my life it will work)

[kyle505]

Remind him that what he's doing is illegal. Let him know that you have no problem giving him up to the police if he continues to harass you. A friend of a friend - you don't want to be really mean? This is your life, your hard won sobriety. Get mean. Stick up for yourself. If he's continuing to push, then you need to push back. Stop being so nice.
And just a note - never think for one second that you're over the addiction. That is how we relapse.

[ImDONENoMore]

great idea weaver.  TALK about your recovery and how you can help him, he'll either accept the help or run like hell.  It's a win win either way.

[weaver71]

My dealer kept calling me for about 2 months. I had tried to quit and failed so many times, he was just waiting for me to return. He's been through 3 scripts without me giving in and has given up. I just reminded myself that he is self-centered and as sick as I was. He is as desperate and has as bad a memory as I did. He cares about nothing, like I did. I just talked to him about recovery, and offered to help him, every time he stopped by or called. I could see his eyes glaze over with boredom. His daughter heard me talking and asked for help, and has been clean for a month now. Just wanted to share what worked for me. If you work on changing you, the world slowly changes to fit the new you.

[Norco1947]

I repeat , Give him 2 choices if he calls you again .  Killed or Killed

[ImDONENoMore]

With friends like that who needs enemies?

Ignore him - he couldn't care less about you and you're no longer in that world.  F him and move on.  (you're doing great)

[basketcase42159]

I am on day 5 and I can totally relate and hear you!  My dealer was texting the day I talked to him...told him hey when you hit 400 a month of vicodin 10's you know you got a problem.  He agreed, ok I thought, cool.  Then the texting starts...hey, in case your interested, the green ones just came in....they are willing to let them go for 3.50........that I thought was bad enough.....then his girlfriend starts in with "everything we did for you (like they did not make $100 a transaction?) and now you are going to make us lose our house and not feed our kids?!!!!!  Can you believe that??  Who told you to base your mortgage or having kids on my addiction?  Like the life of a dealer has any guarantees from one day to the next?  He is a nice guy and was embarassed, but she wears the pants.  I just shook my head and figured when they say that....when they come to you offering when they know you are determined to quit.....I dont care how nice they are, who they are a friend of.....you are fighting for your life here!!!  If they dont get the hint, you have every right to be mean until they get the point!  Your life depends on keeping yourself away from this.  I have holed up in my house for the past 4 days (mostly) until I am emotionally stronger when I know if I run into it out there (as many people know if I am limping and bent over, my back issues are bad and offer it to me).  You are the only one here who can control your destiny....make sure it is truly you making that decision...no one else.

[Norco1947]

Happy for you day 32 .  I say Offer him a choice kill him or stop calling . He's  killing you & others . Why don't people call the Cops on dealers who make drug calls ?

[Ben727]

Echo. The time to be nice is over. Look at like this person is intentionally trying to ruin your life. To take away your family, job, and self-respect with willful disregard for you and yours. Cuz they are. Sic your husband on him, please.

[dominosarah]

I would tell the dealer next time to get a real job as what he is peddling is killing people every single day.  Not your problem he is broke.  

[Happysacks00]

So happy to see that the success is possible. I am on day 1 quitting opiates, mainly roxis. I've been on and off for the last 2 years now. I snort them, and usually can do 2-5 per day, depends on my mood, my wallet, and what's available.

I'm sick of the Bs, lies, the money, feeling like ****, guilt. My plan is to take a suboxone over the course of 1 week. I've quit before for approx 3 months and said what's 1 roxi going to do.....well it got me right back in.

[SoDoneNow]

YOU GUYS ARE SO AWESOME!! Thanks so much for your support. You have no idea what it means to me....well, I guess you do. :)

[SoDoneNow]

Yep, great "friends," huh? UGH!!!

[SoDoneNow]

Exactly! And when I said no, he said "well, I only have 40 available." Like he thought maybe I'd be willing to try a smaller amount. I usually ordered 100 plus. Tricky little guy!

[SoDoneNow]

No, she doesn't. I've had my # for 11 years. I'm not changing it. I think he'll get the hint. i was pretty firm about him not calling this last time. But he needs my money so he tries. I have to stay strong. I did tell my hubby, who is pretty mad. Maybe I'll hand him the phone next time. :)

[SoDoneNow]

For some reason, I don't think he cares. He's short on money and my quitting is not in his best interest. I might sic my husband on him. :)

[BeyondScrewed]

Great job!!!!! One of my dealers is a good friend. Ive asked him twice to cut me off just to go score the very next day. If you have to be mean i say be mean. Its better than the possible alternative if you ask me. They are never gonna stop wanttingbour money

[scaredstifless]

Change your number or turn your phone off

[selfinduced]

What Candy said!!! Just want to say congrats on making it 32 days! I know how hard it is to get to where you are. Treat yourself to something nice today......and change your number gurl.