18 months today!!!

[Clarityrocks]

I just wanted to share this with people who can appreciate this milestone. My family and friends are awesome, and supportive, but they just don't get it. The battle that we are fighting is serious, and HARD. I think they just think once you cease using drugs and/or alcohol, (in my case, both) that you are all good. I find that almost laughable. There are so many layers to my recovery, I am still working hard everyday to figure things out, why I feel certain ways, how can I do this differently, etc. Anyway, I have been stoked, waiting for today to get here, so I can say, I have been clean and sober for 18 whole months. In a row! I never thought I would escape the prison I created for myself. I remember it so clearly, the desperation, the darkness. It helps me today, it keeps things in perspective for me. I am still grateful everyday, at some point or another, but sometimes I find myself getting all worked up because I am on hold for too long, or someone is holding up the line, or some other grave injustice is being committed against me (kidding), and I reflect over how much things have really changed. I have my family, my husband and kids, a home, and countless other blessings, when a year and half ago, I was quickly headed toward divorce, losing my kids, or homeless, if I didn't stop using. I am lucky that I get to take my kindergartener to school everyday, or be the team mom for his baseball team (got this by default, hub is the coach). I couldn't be depended on for things like that anymore towards the end of my use. People can depend on me now, and that is HUGE. So I try to chill out about the trivial stuff, because that's all it is. I have everything I need, and that is what matters. Anyway, I am rambling, but wanted to share. Going to get my long coveted 18 month chip tomorrow, super stoked! Thanks for listening, peeps.
Allison

[ricart70]

awesome post and even awesomer job !!!!!!  Keep it up.    You are doing so great and are an inspiration to us all here !!!  

[Jimmy1975]

Congratulations on 18 months !!! Wow that is quite the accomplishment . Well done ! I am sure you are feeling great now ..Jimmy

[ariley13]

Congrats on 18 months! That is very inspiring. You are doing awesome! Keep on rockin' and rollin'! :)

[toothfairie]

congrats on 18 months!!  great accomplishment!  thanks for sharing this post with us!  

[BelleFemme]

I am so proud of you! You are an inspiration! Congrats!

[akitagurl12]

Congratulations!!

[Clarityrocks]

Thank you guys, I have to say I am pretty proud of myself! Lol

[Ballgame]

Awesome congrats

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on your 18 months!!! Cherish this gift and always remember that no matter what, you're worth it.

[selfinduced]

YAY Clarity, I know just how much you have put into getting better and working to stay clean. So proud of you. YOU do have many blessing around you and now you get to enjoy them, Keep those days coming! sooooo great!

[VICourageous]

Great Post Allison. Way to go 18 months is so Awesome..I sure do like how you called it "Layers" Ha! I call it stages but I like that one..Thanks for the support that you have given me and all the others on here. Keep up the good work and I will sure try my best to follow in your footsteps..Ya!!!!
Bless
vickie