24 hrs clean! its a start.

[r_dig]

just got home from work and am at about 26 hours clean now.  i started feeling the cravings bad at work...my supplier kept calling to say she has her scrpt in.  i hung up on her every time.  im starting to sweat more and get a little cold at times, but nothing major.  work, overall, did a good job of keeping my mind straight.  i could only imagine how i would have been at home all day by myself.  i owe my supplier, who is a friend but only knows how to get a hold of me by phone, and i vow to pay her someday but i cant go there to give her her money yet.  i wont leave empty handed. the craving is getting pretty intense.  i played Tool as loud as my stereo could go on the way home and it made me feel really happy,  i didnt even think of the pills while it was playing.  that felt good.  anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this, im a little worried about how tonight is going to go.

[confused456]

I have to comment that its not only a start, but a huge step! Good for you. Great job. Hang in there, and by all means, listen to tunes, watch TV, read, whatever you can to keep your mind occupied. That was my biggest mistake!! Not doing anything. Best of luck to you.

[r_dig]

thank you.  being pill free is something ive tried really hard to do in the past,  but never with this much determination.  

[worried878]

You have made it thru day 1 which was my worst day come to think of it!...u r sooooo close!

[worried878]

everyone is different...i was at around 80 mg a day...sometimes 100 of hydrocodone...my worst day was the first day, then it got better each day...day 4 I went to church and breakfast with my family and spent the day with my g-daughter (she spent the night with me night 3) and went out with friend that night for a bit...day 5 i was ok...noticed i was real tired tho and took naps which i usually do not do...I went to the gym each day and walked on the treadmill...I noticed each day it got longer that I walked...day one was just 20 minutes....U will be fine..if you have to which i doubt, call in with the flu for monday...I do not think u will be 100 percent on monday but u will be alive and kicking/and better yet...pill free

[r_dig]

great advice.  i text her that i am WDing and getting off OC for good.  she says thats good for me and i need to send her the money lol.  for some reason i never thought of mailing it.  im doing it now.  thanks guys.  

so one more thing, the worst day of WD is around the 4th day?  so that means i timed my taper all wrong because i have to go back to work monday,  HAVE to.

[worried878]

Dig in for the weekend and do whatever you feel the need/other than pills/to do...sleep...soak...walk...drink fluids and take your vitamins...catch up on emails or phone calls...I would ask your supplier if you can mail the money to her...and dlllllete her number from your phone...I had to tell mine I lost my job...I lied but I did not want him calling me anymore

[toxictome]

Also...pretend like you have the flu, and treat accordingly...if you jsut keep thinking..
"I have wds"...that will make it seeeem worse...so now...you have the flu...  :D

[toxictome]

You need to do something to keep your mind occupied tonight!

Watch a movie, read a book, or just post on here...we'll be here to support you. Why don't you tell your supplier you are quitting , so she will stop calling? Get her address and send her the $$, then you won't be tempted.....GOOD LUCK!!!

[mandee500]

wow, we should keep in touch, I'm working on 48hrs so we're pretty close to eachother in this ****. You're right, don't see your supplier, I've been getting text messages from one of mine that just go unanswered, I can't quite muster up the balls to tell her to sell them to someone else, I want them....... I want sobriety, a semi-normal life, and my money even more! It will get worse before it gets better, I assume, but like everyone before us says, its worth it. Keep posting so we can stay in touch. MUCH LUV!!!

[r_dig]

thanks,  it is a huge help.  im an anxious person to begin with, and i heard the WDs add anxiety themselves.  great.  im getting anxiety just thinking about getting WDs.  lol.  im a wreck.

[Mikeinthesouth]

it is going to go just like it is supposed to happen. I am looking at how much better I am feeling today in comparisson to the last 10 days and I have to admit ( regardless of the fact that I felt as though I was going to die ) this is a small price to pay for the years I have been abusing. Hang in there stay around here as much as possible it is a tremendous help at least it is for me and many others I read here.