3 weeks clean... Is this normal?

[InNeed88]

So tomorrow it will be 21 days for me clean from norco....I've been feeling actually really great up untill this past Sunday. I know that I have alot of stressful situations going on in my life right now but it's like i hit a brick wall !!

Before i was waking up feeling great, had emotions was feeling happy , and sad and all that. Now im numb ( and not the happy numb when your on pills) like just no feelings up or down- i do feel overwhelmed and stressed from the situations going on right now but other than that its like im emotionless. I've lost all my energy and motivation just with in the past few days.. UGH

I know it may be normal its just frustrating when you start feeling great and getting better and than you start feeling like this its like well WTF?!!
Have any of you experienced this??

[VICourageous]

I am very proud of you...You got it!!!!!! You just needed to vent...Way to go..
vickie

[selfinduced]

Ouuuuuuuwiii, I feel excitement in the air. Hooray for you for getting moving on your goals and chipping away. Soon enough you'll be all nested in your new digs and enjoying your sobriety. Keep the good going.....

[FourJays]

It is so hard to accept the "baby steps", "one day at a time" thing right now, and it sounds like you have so much going on.  But you are doing GREAT!  I just wanted to comment and encourage you a bit - I, like you had those moments/days in the first couple of weeks clean where I felt great, full of energy, etc.  Then at about 3 to 4 weeks I felt like I had a bit of a set back - kind of like what you are describing (the physical part).  But I want to tell you that it faded away and when it did I started feeling even better than before, and since then has been all good things.  There are occasional moments ofcorse, but they go as quickly as the come, and are coming less and less.

You do have a lot on your plate, but your ARE handling it and getting through.  I think you are doing amazing . . . hang in there :)
Julie  

[InNeed88]

Thank you all so much, It's awesome to have such a great support system, amazing family and you all behind me. I know i can do this, But as well all know our coping skills aren't exactly our best traits especially in the beginning. Thanks for letting me vent cause sometimes thats whats needed.

I went back over to my dads after work yesterday and my cousin was there helping, which is awesome cause she always motivates me and we get SOO much done together! The only thing that ***** is she is carless at the moment so having to drive ALL over the place isnt helping with my stress level lol
I'm hoping to get back over there today, One day at a time and one thing at a time...I'm being very impatient only cause untill dad's place is finished im still at the townhouse living and dealing with my boyfreind UGH!!!
I know one step at a time ...but thats a hard thing to accept

[EvolverU]

Well said & Amen, Toothfaerie!
                       InNeed88: You can do this! Here's a quote that sums up the essence of what Toothfaerie posted (by one of the greatest writers who ever lived.) : "The Strongest Of All Warriors Are These Two -- Time & Patience." Hang in there and keep posting. You're on your way!

[toothfairie]

Hey just hang on. Ride the waves the best you can for now. It will all even out. I thought the same thing more than a few times. I'm not a patient person but this disease has MADE me be more patient. We have no choice. Using isn't an option so we have to let time be our friend. I know everyone hates that word "time". I know I did. Lol  and life is still going even tho we aren't numb to it any longer. Good luck with the transition girl!! Stay strong!!

[selfinduced]

Hi InNeed, Try really hard to just take one small step at a time. Don't let the bigger picture overwhelm you. As long as your clean, you can manage one thing at a time. 3 weeks clean is awesome, really awesome! Your seeing clarity and the possibilities of what life ahead holds for you. Being clean doesn't mean all your problems disappear, but I promise if you stay the track all your goals will come. You now know you can have a life drug free. Just think how amazing it will be when you "clean house". Stay focused. You deserve a complete existence without all the ill's of another that doesn't have your best interest at heart. Keep chipping away and remember the hell of being neck deep in pills.

[dominosarah]

You arent losing your sanity and i soooooooo understand the hoarder thing!!  When we had to clean out my dads stuff we found receipts of their polio shots from 1960 and boxes of styrofoam!!!!  Reality TV would of had a hay day!!

You do have alot on your plate right now and getting out of that abusive relationship will help.  I think we go into a shut down mode for awhile when we are in situations like that.  It's almost like a protective coating if that makes sense.  I am glad you have a therapist who can relate.  Vent away here too.

[VICourageous]

DITTO I could have not said it any better..Right to the Point!!!!!
Very, Very True !!!!!!
vickie

[InNeed88]

Yeah , I'm seeing a C.A.D.C who actually had an opiate problem her self a while ago....I was going to both AA/NA meetings but that is on hold for the moment...Which I asked my Therapist if that was ok and with what I have going on in my life right now she said ya, cause i'm already having WAY to much on my plate right now.

I'm trying to keep my sobriety first and my mental health first, BUT...Being in a mentally abusive relationship that i've deiced to get out of makes it tricky, I knew my BF wasnt good for my sobriety ( he doesnt use but like i said abusive)
So i have WAY to much stress and way to much on my plate, Having to clean out my dads basement so i can move back there- He's gotta 30 years of Junk down there ( shoulda just called the show hoarders for him lol) and will have to pack up my whole townhouse (currently live with my Bf)
and am still having to be around my BF till i can get everything done to move BLAH
LIFE *****!!!!!! Ooo and work on top of all of that , ya know no biggie right ..UGH i think im loosing my sanity

[dominosarah]

Yep i understand what you are feeling.  We ride that "pink cloud" for awhile and all of a sudden that is gone.  You have now entered the reality zone.  Try not to let yourself get overwhelmed.  That is never good for us as our brain takes us places we shouldnt go.  Prioritize your commitments, check your stressors and see which ones are really yours to tackle.  This period doesnt last forever but you have to be extra careful right now.  Always keep that Guard Up.  Are you doing anything with aftercare?