4 months clean, so much panic

[Coperniki]

Hey I've been 4-5 months off klonopin, after 8 years of abuse. Even though it's been 4 months I feel like my hearts racing constantly, it's hard to get to sleep without alcohol, the ringing in my ear is constant, it goes on 24/7 I really need someone to talk to to get through this. I'm seeing a doctor, I go in tomorrow but I feel to anxious to go, she's a good person but the anxiety is always there and I'm tired of it. I want to use so bad, I feel as though I lost the battle and want to use again, even if it's a moment of calmness and clarity. When does this crap stop?

[Amandag78]

Hi. Congratulations on 4-5 months clean.
Im sorry your feeling this way. But it does take much longer than 4 months to feel somewhat normal.
I had severe anxiety after i stopped using for about 8-9 months or so. Then it just disappeared one morning. It was bad enough to stop me from opening up my front door let alone walking to the letter box.
IBK is right with the alcohol, this can also add to your anxiety.
I have almost 20 months clean which is huge for me and i am still not healed yet from my drug abuse. But all my mental health issues have finally gone. I went a bit crazy there for a while after my 1 year mark, but i came out of it better.
I feel your pain and wanting this to just all go away. And it does go away eventually as long as you are clean from all drugs and alcohol.
I think its great you are willing to talk to someone about your concerns. Most people just cant be bothered.
Please take care and pride yourself on your clean time. You have done so well, so far. ♡

[Coperniki]

She is a psychiatrist, will be seeing the dr dr in a few days for ears nose and throat  to check out the ringing in my ears

[IBKleen]

Hi, I'm sorry no one responded to your post. sometimes posts get far down on the page and no one sees them.

Anyway, is it your doctor your general one or a psychiatrist of sorts?

Also, the alcohol. is surely not helping. Alcohol is a depressant so you are adding fuel to the fire by drinking. You need to get yourself to a place where you are not abusing ANY substance to control your anxiety. Get honest with the doctor and allow her to suggest a treatment plan.

Let us know how the appointment went. We are here to support you.