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45 day clean w/ Obsessive Thoughts...
I am 45 Days off Opiates and still find myself obsessively thinking on going back to them. I wonder if anyone with a good bit of clean time from opiates can tell me how long it was till you found yourself not thinking about them every single day? I mean, I probably talk myself out of using a dozen or more times per day and it doesn't seem to be getting easier. 2yr Oxycodone & Vicodin Addiction.
Really well put. It is ALL about rewiring. It takes a LONG time to form new neural pathways and find things that reward the pleasure centre in our brain with something that isn't our drug of choice.
Exercise REALLY did this for me. Also, returning to my art and immersing myself in it. I lost my art when I was using. Now I know, when I lose my art- I lose myself. It saves me every time.
I hope you come back and post Slim. I'm a little concerned for you.
Lu
Exercise REALLY did this for me. Also, returning to my art and immersing myself in it. I lost my art when I was using. Now I know, when I lose my art- I lose myself. It saves me every time.
I hope you come back and post Slim. I'm a little concerned for you.
Lu
I agree w/ kellygirl. And sometimes the only saving grace for me is literally having no way to get any. Are you in that situation where you cut your connection/no access?
I'm almost 30 days clean i go to about 5 meetings a week and i too have to fight the cravings big time I'm in therapy too and i just wanna get high when I'm in certain situations sometimes i think its more of a habit cuz its only certain times i want them idk its all so hard worth it but hard i fight relapse a few times a week at least but I'm fighting it man tooth and nail and i will with this
Slim- I know how you feel. And a year ago I did the same thing. Finally, got so sick of the pill bullsh!t and detoxed. But, I changed absolutely nothing. So I was in my same routine minus pills. I too started to glamorize them, and craved them constantly. It's called "white-knuckling" it. So I relapsed, a tiny bit once. Okay, fine. Then, again and again and again until almost back to full usage when I REALLY bottomed out and the light bulb went off. If my feelings and life were healthy, I wouldn't be addicted to opiates. So I had to just change it completely. I don't want to go to NA or AA but I go because I tried EVERYTHING my way for the last 5 or 6 years using but wanting to get clean. And I always went back. If nothing changes than nothing changes right?
And yes, I have cravings, I have them today. But it doesn't mean I have to act on them. I can DO (not think, but DO) something different.
So, like Lulu said, any aftercare?
And yes, I have cravings, I have them today. But it doesn't mean I have to act on them. I can DO (not think, but DO) something different.
So, like Lulu said, any aftercare?
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Second of all- are you doing any aftercare?
It isn't enough to simply stop using drugs and expect that life will return to normal. Aftercare is the number 1 thing that helps us stay clean. You need to identify the reasons you used in the first place, and spend a lot of time rewiring your brain to fill the void that you used to fill with drugs.
NA/AA, smart recovery, addictions counselling, CBT- these are some of the MANY options available to you.
Because I had reached my absolute bottom when I went cold turkey I realized I had to completely transform my life and work harder on myself than I ever had before in order to recover and heal. Honestly, because of this- I didn't ever experience cravings. I was fortunate in that I had complete family and friend support and none of these people were using. I never had to be exposed to the pills that had almost taken my life. After a few weeks clean I discovered a half full bottle of oxy that I'd missed in my purge (I had so many opiates in my house before detox I could have opened a pharmacy) My heart beat really fast and I immediately went to my parents (whom I was living with at the time while I recovered) and gave them the pills to dispose of. I never even considered taking one and just wanted them as far from me as possible. You MUST see the drugs as the poison that was destroying your life. Because that's what they are.
I had nearly 3 years of clean time when I was forced to go on opiates for a serious medical condition that I am waiting for surgery for. It was a terrible struggle for me because I was terrified of sliding backwards. I stepped up my support, put a plan in place, and am feeling at peace with it.
You have to work very hard friend. And most importantly, no matter how bad you want to, you CANNOT use. This is where aftercare and a sponsor is so helpful. When you're having the cravings you can go to a meeting, call a friend, and do something to distract yourself. Start filling your life with things OTHER than the drugs and the cravings will dissipate.
Be strong and don't do anything to compromise your hard earned clean time.
Proud of you...
Lu